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HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ZOE! had celebration at zoe house yesterday. TOTAL FUNNIEST. LOL. due to my very special BFF coming out with out of the world topic. LOL. HIGHNESS. POP the question on when you think our friendship will last. HA. although its random, but will the 7 of us be separated? with melson going to leave for states to study. and the girls graduating? finding their half apple. could it still be the same? or at least still keep in touch? same goes to niggers. Friendship is like relationship it takes all the parties to put in their part and nt just some. well i already have one that is on the verge. lets not talk about emo stuff. and I quite like what zw said yesterday nt because its nice to hear(no doubt) but what he say really set me thinking and i think its really true. HE said that i am one who shines whenever there's a group around me. shines nt as in taking the limelight but in a good way like more happy. and i start to eel all emo when i am alone. LOLx really. that how i feel also. i have build a relationship with people around me. i like having companies although sometime i like to be left alone. but more often than not i usually prefer to be with people. one of the most happiest times is playing floorball. Many memories left in there, all the training and stuff. actually apart from making into the national squad is one of my dreams i have another which i think it can be fulfilled easily is people i love come down and support me in my match, be it family, loved ones, friends( only jonathan, kailing and reagen naughty) once. i hope there would be really someone( chunfu and gang, zq and gang, zoe, sy and van and gang and all my close frens) just watch me play. although you all may nt understand the whole game play but its the presence that matters, give me the courage and support. probably then i will further excel. LOL. but anyway i dont even know if i am going to continue to play in the uni. let see how things goes. think thats abt all. SEE YA. OH! OH! OH! OH!

bumpy ride

LIFE has recently became a roller coaster ride for me, it started low, slow, but sunddenly you feel like you are on cloud nine where everything around you was perfect, you feel happy and all, but the next moment when it starts to descend. you start to feel queasy, feel afraid, the highness was soon over and even worst you found that you are having motion sickness, one moment of highness, happiness resulted in the day ending like crap, you feel down, upset, frustrated when people around you start giving that nonchalant attitude where they don't care about their stuff. they just want to cruise their way through when you someone who is responsible enough starts to gain recognition and people entrust things to you and you find yourself having so much to do that it never seems to finish, yet you may be happy that people trust you and task things to you, on the other hand you see others doing nothing but just stay around looking handsome, you just cant help it but to grumble why is it that they can be slacking their ass off and you are practically doing everything. why must you care so much, lets just get everyone frk. but you know you cant and can do nothing but to suck thumb as you do not want to spoil this relationship as you still need to face them almost the whole entire life. they are not bad i must say but they should be show more initiative and help out. when you dont have anything to do, it doesnt mean that other people have nothing to do, help them, so things can be done faster, quicker and everyone can be happier. why be the best when the best have to do everything, why be the lousiest when you know you can be the best?

FUN

THANKS BFFs for today, it really caught me off guard. i really did nt suspect anything, it was a total surprise for me ((; yea! THANKS. i really appreciate a lot. ZOE' mom fried rice, Shi yun granny curry, sandwiches from zoe, minmin and sy. SPIDERMAN CAKE FROM Van! ((: NT FORGETING ZW ANDRE AND MELSON IN THE CONSPIRACY, and the WOW WET TIME! lol ((: xie xie

I PRACTICALLY SPEND MY BD AT HOME. ): I GUESSED EVERYONE IS BUSY AND I HAVE TO GO FOR WEDDING DINNER. SUCKS! HAIZ. HAVE YOU EVER WANDER IF YOU PUT FREN AS IMPT PPL> DO THEY DO THE SAME? YOU ARE ALWAYS THERE FOR THEM, BUT SOMETIMES THEY JUST CANT BE THERE FOR YOU. SO LIVE YOUR OWN LIFE!

BIRTHDAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF? HAHA. turning twenty this year. finally reach the 20 le. old le. start to be an adult? LOL boon or bane? i dunno. nth to blog now.

LOVE

Back from a much dreaded week. NTH much to talk abt. Life is getting boring. what would it be like next week, would it be the same. lets hope i wont be disappointed.

NEW YEAR

IT"S THE START OF THE NEW YEAR! ((:

5 years now have passed, but it just seem to like happened yesterday. I am glad you still kept some of the stuff. (:

IT TAKES TWO HANDS TO CLAP

IT has been how many donkey months (even years) since I last blog. I do not know why i feel like blogging today. Time flies and its gonna be a new year ahead, throughout this year, nothing much have happened to me i guess cause i am in the army for almost 24/5. But throughout this past months, you can see that people do change, although they may say that they didn't but it's often the people around them who can sense or feel their difference. Last night i was bombarded with something, something that really sets me thinking,the channel U show 'THE PROMISE'. A short film abt a girl who is intellectually disabled and she fall in love with this normal guy (whom the society deemed as normal) in the very place they are working. It's very hard to explain, it there is any possible means to watch it, go watch it. It may look like a typical love story but have anyone thought about the parents of the girl feel? You may think that I am stupid, who in the right mind would think of such think, This is completely normal as people do not think of such stuff until they are trapped in them. Ask yourself, would you care so much abt your diet if the doctor did not tell you that you will die if you dont. would you exercise if you found out that the shirt you bought last month could no longer fit you and that you will die of illness? would you appreciate what someone has done for you all this while but one day they are gone or one day you are the one actually doing it. Although they might have exception but all that stated normally reflect itself in desperate times. It applies to sometimes too. Bringing back the point about the parents and the girl, the analogy that i am trying to draw from here is that, sometimes you cannot think only from your pov, you need to spare a thought of others too, try putting yourself in others shoe. What if your children was like that, who you scold them morons? It's always in times of desperate that people start to panic, start to think, start to be more understanding and compassionate.

It is the same for relationships be it family, girl-boy, gd girl-gd boy. It takes two hands to clap, it cannot work one way. Dont always think people are not putting in the effort, ask yourself, how much effort have you put in? And also, you may have put in YOUR 100% of course it would be gd that others have also put in their 100%, BUT look, others may think that they have already put in their 100%, but to you it is nt the 100% that you assume, you aspect, you demand it to be. SEE. it boils down to you. yea you. you are the one who deem the 100%, if you lower your standards, expect less and if it goes more than it, would not you be happier? Of course, there's always the presence of exceptions. when that occurs, it is time to reflect.

When will one start treasuring their things, it will be went those things/ people are gone be it forever or just for a little while. Make it a habit to say thanks, or at least acknowledge what others have done for you. sometimes i wonder, why be the gd ppl, it is always the gd ppl that suffers, in movies it is always the bad people that last throughout the movie, the gd ppl dies in betw and only one which is the main lead of the gd ppl stay till the end. so why be gd, but think of it if you become bad, then you reciprocate, arent you being that bad person that you hate? Oh well, contradiction again. IRONY. PARADOXICAL.

I am not trying to say big words here, i am just trying to state my opinions, my stand, my side of the story. i am not very gd at writing, but i am rather vocal.
Sometimes i wonder, whenever people ask me for help or whatsoever, my first ans will always be an yes, sometimes no questions asked, although they might be exceptions.
But when it is the other way round, there are only a few i know (hope) i can reply on. Actually i am quite shy in nature, although it may be otherwise when you know me well enough. haha. Actually i dunno why i compose this today, some random thoughts?

It is through misunderstanding that there is common understanding.

Hatred

There are good and bad news, The good news is the days are limited, and it's almost ending. The bad news is i have to tolerate for another two weeks or so. what am i going to do. will i be able to pull through. this is so not me. i dun wan to wear a mask. i cant help but to feel down at times. HAI. GOD tell me what to do. Make me a way when there seems to be no way!

LAST DAY

Tmr is the day, the day of my sentence, the day where all boy grow into man, the day where pink i/c is gone, the day where freedom was no longer meant to be, the day where you only gets home during weekends, the day where ppl starts to realise i am no longer that available, the day where you dial the hotline you may not get an instant reply or get weird calls or sms ie. hey where you. LOL. the day where liverpool will start their winning streak. LOL. LAME. THis is jack. feeling rather excited as this is the first time that i go camp for 1yrs and 10mths. everyweek seems to be a new camp i feel and i hope that there is always something to look forward to. i hope to make new good frens there although i noe i will be exposed to diff kinds of ppl. lets just hope i will meet the better ones. ((: Till then, take care to all my fellow frens, BFFs, love ones, eye candies (LOL) , and whoever you think i will mention you but i didnt. yea. you the one reading it now. RMB TO TAKE CARE. MAYBE you all will start tresuring and missing me when i am not around. ((: TATAs

JACK (-___-)

LOst

Long since i last blog.THe days are drawing closer, 10 more days before enlistment. hmm. there arent anything that i haven do, except some meetups with my friends, and NO.2 if you happen to see this! PLS REPLY YOU ASS!! haha. there still some presents i haven pass. i haven buy my phone neither have i bought my mp3. hmm shall get it done within the next 10 days. PMS this few days. dunno why either.shall blog again when there are more to blog. 10 days more before my hair will be gone. gone with the days when my eye were made red with my hair. hahal ((:

new realisation

YEA! i am here to blog once again. the reason of me not bllooging that often is because i see no need to as my life is as usual mundane. s: my life has been revolving around refering and doing camps. the rest of the days i just slack. haha. as the results days drew nearer, the anxiety and fear grew larger, i am afraid that i may not make it. i really dunno. what if i cant make it, what shall i do? omg! haiz. i decided that i will not think of it untill the day is here. anyway i found something weird abt human nature. and that is do not mess around with ppl whom you do not really know well as you never know the things you said or do might pissed them off.i may have done is sub-consciously, i dunno but whats done cannot be undone rite? i hope that in future i can be more cautious about my human- human relationship or what you call it. haha. and i found out that my greatest fear is acutally disappointment.

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Disappointment   You are a fun-loving, energetic, and cheerful person. You love adrenaline rushes, and going out at night. You constantly have to be having a great time to feel completely happy. Your biggest fear is not having anything to do, or having a huge disappointment/let down in your life. You hate being sad, and if something in your life suddenly went wrong it would be extremely hard for you to deal with. Just remember that everyone has to deal with hard times. Stay strong, and pretty soon your fun, party life will get right back the way it used to be.
Looked down on
Being Alone
Commitment
Where Your life is Going
Losing Someone
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Friends out there, do you agree with this? haha. try it. *gotten it from Zhi lun's blog! ((:

I dunno what to blog, cause i got nothing to blog. this month what i have been doing is camps and referee for floorball matches. i think that will be able to feed me? idk. haha. ((: i dun mind more jobs with more money. ((: this month was not really fantastic. i hope next month will be better! ((: Happy 牛Year

Happy Belated birthday to myself.

Aunt 2

Good Bye Aunt, May you rest in peace. My birthday wish this year will definitely include you. Thanks for all that you have given. You shall be rewarded. ((:

Aunty

Someone who ones love me. when i was small. she always buy stuff for me. I remeber once i got this pokemon shirt that my mom bought, but on the way home, i lost it. I cried and my mom scolded me. She walk all the way back to buy a new one for me. She never fails to buy a lot of food for me to eat. Her dishes are delicious and her yam cake is imba. but unfortunately, few years back she fell and suffer from a stroke. Then on she never recovered after that. I noe some day she will have to leave to answer god call. and she finally did. ): My biggest aunt. I hope your afterlife will be pleasant.

Spiderman 4

YEAH!!!! NO.4 is coming soon!! WOOO...

WHAT IF DESTINY WAS NEVER MEANT TO BE?

2009

Its the beginning of a new year. i guessed this year will be rather different. its the year that i will be in the army. its a year that i wont be in singapore on my birhtday. its a year where i dont have to study. its a year i hoped that is filled with surprises and hopes. i wished that this year everything will be going well for me. i also hope that my friends will be happy (: OK. till then.

New year

The year is coming to an end in two days time, Ez link going to expire. LMAO. This year seems to pass very fast yet very slow. Very slow during the first 11mths when taking the As. After As. the time seem to pass very fast. I think i really enjoy myself till now. Esp KOREA TRIP. Though i am lazy to blog, but times during there was really really really good. all the snowboarding. Seoul. midnight room partying. Cooking. Hell lots of fun. all the joke as well. 60cents ^^. Hmm. Probably working for as a camp instructor. but still looking for other jobs. so peeps if you got job. nothing to do with MLM intro me ar!! haha. ((: I will not be in singapore for my bd for 2009. will be celebrating it with the trees. HAHA. first time celebrating bd in camp. hope it will be a nice one. there is always a first time for everything. I shall end here. i dunno what to blog anymore. ((; Take care people. And treasure the people around you (:

Korea

Finally i decide to update. actually there not much to update. i am lazy to blog about korea. you can look up the photos on my facebook http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/profile.php?id=538893114&ref=name
((: Overall korea was really fun. esp the little little things that happened. the supper at night in hotel rooms. the **** face. the pork rib, shuoju, and suana!! heaven!!! ((: 60cents! ^^