SAD

Sometimes its hard for instant forgiveness, it will just make that person just too piss off. When time kicks in, you wonder have the other party forgave you, or are they still waiting for you to apologize. Friendship is on the line, nobody wants to lose a fren. esp for me.

Yesterday i talked to someone whom i have not talked to for quite sometime. she reminds me that i have been like taking care of ppl all my life, like its my forte. who is going to care abt me then? Sometime ppl care because they cared, and sometimes they care because they hope the other party would reciprocate. I know there's fren out there who cares. Sometimes you go all out, but get disappointed with the responses and actions by others. Why make things so complicated, sometimes to make it worst, it looks like you are the only one who gives a damn and other just being nonchalant. Then you think, why should you give a damn then. they can like that why i cant be the same. When you settle down to think, someone has to do it, if they dont, it will still come down to you. and that's the start of the vicious cycle.

Actions speaks louder than words, but sometimes, you just dont know when and where to start.