devasted

When i thought my life has reached a high, it smacks me right down again. i am devasted. i spent much of my time in training and in the end i got nothing. i dunno what to say or do anymore. my results as a result has also hit rock bottom. whats worst when i thought granny is going to get better she ended up in s stroke. life. hahha. i guess the only thing i still have or hope to have is you! you are all that i have left. i hope you stand and stay by me through this period even if you are halfway round the world. i really wish you would appear and let me hug you tight right now. i miss you and i love you