Heart shattered!!

Tears blurred my vision as i was blogging this...i was really sad and dissappionted that night...cry till both of my eyes are sore...y heart is just brokened, torn apart, shattered, trampled, crushed what very you can think off...People just appreciate what they do of you sometimes...Brain juice was squeeze, nights of preparation, stayed up late just to finish the card in time...and the result the reciever just read and threw it away...i not angry just felt lost and diappointed...put in so much of effort and heart into making it and in th end its just nothing more then a piece of thrash...the card is really nice lo... even Zoe says it is...haiz...i expected this to happen anyway...i knew she wun appreciate it..Oh welll i feel so **** up man!! I cant help but to feel sad...tears just roll down even if i dun think of it...wth!!!!!!!! ARHHHHHHHHHHH The card has no values after all...it was meant just to be a present... you got your choice and freedom to accept it...i wun be crossed with you...Oh well...i wun hate you for throwing away the card...HAppy belated birthday anyway... i dun think i would ever make another birthday card for anyone again...(-___-!)Jack

Sad

Hmmmnth happen yesterday...just o levels and home... its so boring... i stayed up to fiinsh the card ...hope people will appreciate...dun then just burn it la...oh well...went to the beach yerterday!! along... found that those markings faded le...oh well just like ...hmmm i dunno i always tell myself no to think about it but i cant oh welll hais...Love you my precious daughter...and wish the fei fei and reagen and safe journey there and back!! (-___-!)Jack

Wat a day

The past few days was just mugging for chinese nothing much...really hope i could get a A1...will i ..i thinki will ba...today went for geo trail..started out at 9... from Nus..travelled to pasir Ris beach..then to punggol..then to sembawang beach..then to labardor park.... didnt finish all 7 station ...but we were first to report for the geo trail at the end piont which earns us some bonus..Really sad that we didnt win at least a top 8 in the end...Haiz...Sad..Happy birthday fishy...tmr is her birthday...should i send her a msg for happy birthday?? i really dunno ...all i hope for now is that we can be friends...oh well...Family is faced with crisis i really feel so stress coming back home everyday not beacause of studies but of family problems...God Please safe me....i need help!!why is it that i were there always when you need me...but you werent there for me when i need you...Thank god aleast i do have some other people sharing it with me...My master log...thank you... YOu know sometimes i feel so sadden all of a sudden..Tears...ya Tears just never stop flowing...it really aching in my heart...i tried controlling it but it just overpowered it...I cant take it anymore...every night i am faced with the same problem...i always tell myself to be happy...but i really cant be... i dunno...my life is so f*** up... arh!!!!!..i wan to go to Jc but.... i dunno if i can even get there with my grades ...i blogging even in am mess cause my heart is like one now...if you happen to read this...Take care of yourself k.... M log you too and the rest of my dearest frien....(-___-;)Jack

o'level....

Hmmm...i am home at 2 today...quite early..and went to sleep ..did nothing much in school today mother tongue intensive...oh well..its nearing and i can feel the fear... anyway i decided not to make the cake le...cause i feel that whats the ponit when you put in your very effort to make a cake and the other party just dun appreciate..i dunno..hai...(-___-!)Jack

A day

hmmm...today really was nothing at all just slacking...oh well...i am stuck in a delimma today...whether to make the cake or should i not...you know sometimes i just wonder why i just cant get her out of my brain...it seems that it become a permenent file in my brain's harddisk... the worst is i cant reformat my brain..but the fact is i dun wan to...Everytime i think about the past..it always brings back the sweet memories...as well as tears just cant seems to stop flowing...one year has past and no words has been exchanged between us.. hai...i really dunno what i should do...maybe my final decision will just be walk away and watched her from distance...oh well..i decide to walk with me heart.. i just finish making the cake..just a testing one..hope its not a disaster...hmmm...(-___-;)Jack

Exams

Hmm...finally got back the results...was rather poor hai...sobx...English paper 1 (38/60) paper 2(23/50) Failed.. Amaths (27/80) Emaths(47/100) haiz...Chinese paper 1 (45½/70) paper 2 (41/70) Social Studies(39/50) History(29/50) GEography paper 1 (32/40) paper 2 (74/100) ...see my results damn sucks...geo could have done bteer his too...ah ya all too la...oh well...i must work hard to get my nine points...i mean it!!!...Friends out there GAMBATTE!!!!!!!!! Lets work hard (-___-!) Jack

Oh man!!!

Oh well didnt do much last few days...just watched two movies...poseiden and mi3 both were really nice movies...really should go watch..hm however this week i learn something...friendship are really very special things you know...miscommunication here and there would deterroate the friendship...one and other party would get hurt in the process..oh well...but it takes one other party to say sorry or just apologize...thats it man..the could be not talking to each other in the starting of the day...but after school that are on their way for a movie...sometimes it just take time to heal... like what most said..you "true-est" friend is the most frankiest one to you...cuase he or she wants you to change for the better...sometimes people just mistake someth=hings that you do..or may be you have good intenstion like asking" how are you" you might think that he or she is pitying you..or mabe just give you a bottle of water..you might ask if it is poisonous... thats where problems comes it.. i think that to have friend mean that you must have faith and trust in them... trust those who you think can be trusted ya..Sometimes is good just to be a listener to them dun try to help them cause in the end you might be the one the would blame in the end...But whatever is it, friendships are what bring people close together...i really hope we could be friend again..you know at least talk a little or two..hang out with together ya...i really duno what i did that is wrong that cause this misfortune i should say unto me..oh well..and i figured out whats 5mth 3 times ...aint i smat..theres a learning point that i learn from the two movies... NO MATTER HOW PRO OR GOOD YOU ARE, YOU ALWAYS NEED TO GET HELP FROM FRIENDS IN ORDER TO SAVE YOURSELF OR GET THINGS DONE...YOU CAN NEVER DO THINGS WELL SOLOING... so my dear friends out there just let you all know that i cherish you all alot...Thanks for being there people.. i love you guys(* i am not a gay)..if i was the one who cause all these miseries...i am sorry..hope miracle would happen between us..and hope that we will be friend again.... (-____-)Jack

Liverpool Crown Champion

Wake up at 6.30, father fetch me to school for promotion test for sec threes, 17 turn up i think the most 6 will pass ba oh well!!! I fix all the rifle in armoury room yeah!!! then after promtion test when for metoring was very enriching, the 5 things we learn is very useful in life i think...no i forsee haha!!1 then went to bras bashar with Wilfat and Reagan and jin shi to buy some books... they bought i didnt...hahah then meet fishy at taka to have dinner then went home...Now comes the exciting part>>>Liverpool Vs West ham thought would rather a easy match...but who noes west ham are 2- 0 up liverpool in 20mins??? wth...the Gerrald provided a beautiful goal for cisse and was 2-1 before half-time...THen at 53mins gerrald did the miracle...he equalise from an assist from crouch!!!Wonderful!! Tradegy Struck!!!! when liverpool was looking for their third goal...West ham paly struck form no where and the ball is in the net...OH mY GOODNess...i was dis heartened...i was about to lose my bet with Lao pa...that miracle will happen if west ham wins...when referee signal 4 mins of etra time after 90 mins...i knew it was over...BUT STEVEN GERRALD the man in his ideas, Struck From 35M<<< thirthy-five metres and the ball flew right into the corner of the net....euqliser again he was the man...i seriously know how he felt then man!!! then the match went into extra time...both teams are tired, playes are limping, had a couple of chances but all save or missed...then went into penalty...i almost cant breathe by then...is like another istanbu for liverpool..this time is reina for dudek!!! But he was at his best...superb save from him and liverpool CRown the champion!!! FA CUP Champion!!! yeah...i just lover liverpool.... guys know this entry is long and thx for reading it....ya....Gerrald Figthing spirit is what i lacked of and i will find it...Yeah!!!!!!!!(-____-!!!) JAck

What a day

Hmmm did really nth just help out zhan qing mother end up.....Weemin getting depressed lol..Anyone going out pls ask me hahah...i am bored at home

All down except chem

OMG its the last day of mugging...but i do like gaining knowledge but i just dunno how to apply it like physics!!! dran hard mann...nvm tmr its chem going to work my best for the last paper!!!!!!

Amaths

Hmm!! first time that i can do so many question but oh well harder ones i cant though...sobX but nvm i did my best for amaths i think...Anyway..tmr is geo then thurs is chem...i gonna do well for both papers!!! I Will haha..... Come on guys two more dayS!!!!!!!!!

Just me

Hmm examz period one has ended...another 4 more days to go..past exam are like shit? idun think i will do well for any of the pass paper haiz..careless ba..oh well shall focus on the five thats is coming up ya..its time to wake up jackkkkkkk!!! I think i was never really myself ever since then...when can i really open my heart and smile like i do before..i never am really happy...my feeling just very much suits this song...Kiss Goodbye!! HPT ROCKS!!! i love you guys i never choose someone you all...you guys just make my day!!!! Sorry if i make you guys unhappy...take care guys!!!!(-___-!) jack

Nearing

Guys a i nothing really to blog this few days...Just merely mugging with books...i am working hard to get my nine points ...are you?...tml is english test le...work hard guys see you tml....