Saturday, May 31, 2008

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry

I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never
Been this way before

All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and now one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger ans stronger
'Til they're before your eyes

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

THis song is nice! from Prince Caspian!! The show was nice.. better then the first right no 2? LOL ((:

Friday, May 30, 2008

朋友

这些年一个人
风也过雨也走
有过泪有过错
还记得坚持甚麽
真爱过才会懂
会寂寞会回首
终有梦终有你在心中
朋友一生一起走
那些日子不再有
一句话一辈子
一生情一杯酒
朋友不曾孤单过
一声朋友你会懂
还有伤还有痛
还要走还有我

Dang chu wei shen mo mei you ta chu nan yi bu?

Friday, May 23, 2008

Recovering

Hey guys, thanks for all those who have showed concern about me and my dad! Really thanks, even though you guys may not be there for me in my darkest night and time, But i am glad to know at least i've got friends who cared, and i am not standing alone, fighting this battle alone. My dad's recovering well, just that he slimmed down a lot which i really heart ache to see him this way.. But i am glad that he is still with me. THank god! ((:

This week is the last wk of the term, which means june holidays are awaitng! FUN! PLAY! WORK! with Prelims paper and tys.. Sobz. ahha.. but i would def play hard and study hard, cause all work and no play make jack a dull boy!.. HAHAH.. Anyway, today physics lesson became a motivation session! Mr Ng, he is really someone i adored, someone i respect, someone is aspire to be! He showed us this clip on youtube about steve jobs- co-founder of Apple. In it, he talks about how he became who he is today, and trust me, the road wasnt that easy, go watch it, Motivational talk by steve jobs one youtube. It sets me thinking. Is academic that impt after all. What is your aim, your goal, your passion? What if you studied so hard, and when you got all As, you found out you contacted a incurable disease? bang down by a car? struck by lightning, killed by someone jumping off the buliding and landed on you? it may sound frivolous,but have you ever thought what if you close your eyes today and never get to see the sun tml?

i conceed that Academic results do matter, but while pursuing for it, do not neglect other factors and excitment of life. It is not just or all about studing. you still have your loved ones, friends, teachers, family, so much more things that is too impt, People do not forget that, at the end of the day, what matters most it how you behave, how you portray yourself, your character that matters. Academic determine your attitude towards certain aspects, Character developement determine your altitute towards things! Stay hungry, Stay foolish. Live life till the fullest, Do it while you still can, treasure all those things, people around you while you still can, or while they are still around, do not wait till they are gone then only you regret why you never treasure it the first place!

Jack(:

Monday, May 19, 2008

DAD

Hmm..THanks for all those who have sent their regards on my tag board. YOu guys may be wandering hy i am so emo these whole week. Some who asked me personally would have known, those who didnt may not know. HAHA... HMM i EMOed due to a lot of factors, but it was due to one which excerabated it.

My dad landed in hospital on monday afternoon. I was dumb founded, speechless, starkly stunned. Why on earth would my dad, a healthy person landed up in hospital. He was very serious when he went in there, his eyes were yellow, he was shivering, his platelets level was freaking low. I as so damn worried.

The next day i went to the hospital, he as in pain, the pain on his face was terrible and how i wished i could even share the slightest bit to help him ameolirate his pain. Doctor said he may have contacted Dengue, which added more to my worries. He could hardly moved. Tears welled up in my eyes and i walked out so he would not see it fall.i learn to cherish, it doesnt hurt to tell someone you miss them, you love them, and you longed to see them. It hurts only and more when you wan to tell but he/she is on longer there anymore. Treasure while you can, dun wait till its gone then only you regret. It too late.

Its really texing for me to attend school in the morning, and hospital till nite. The only thing i could do is to keep him company, make him laugh so he worry less.

I learn a lot from this, really a lot. I came to another wondering session. I always wondered where i got my sense of humour from, where i got my gan xing feeling from. It was all from my dad. His family, my relative is damn funny! I swear. my dad got really better because of them, they went home like 10 and was in the hospital as early as ten in the next morning.

He was discharge from hospital on sunday, the dignose was that he had stones in his gall bladder which have dropped out to clog up the bile duct, which then leads to inflammation, that was the real reason why the platelets level was low, not because of DENGUE..oh thank god. Really...finally i felt better after he is discharge, but he still have to go back to check and operate to remove his gall baldder.

When i am at the hospital, i realise something, everyone was there, relative, and family, Why is it that it have to end up in this episode then everyone will appear together. The only happy time when relative meet up i think is only during chinese new year, Other than that its hard to see everyone gathering together for a good cause, unless someone dies or someone landed up in the hospital. True? i dunno. different people think differently.

Lasly, i want to thank all those who stood by me, who asked about my father almost everyday. Thank you, thank god for i have you guys around me. Or i would have really broke down. Thanks for all the encouragement. I realise something. Don blame why others never tell you.. asked yourself when you never asked.

Monday, May 12, 2008

Sometimes

Sometimes i wonder, why am i on earth for,
is it just to add one more person to the world 6.6 billion population,
is it to accomplish something which i am supposed to,
is it to pay back someone that i owe in my pervious life?

Sometimes i wonder, why am i so feeling,
why so easily affected by the people around me.

Sometimes i wonder, why am i so unlucky,
Missing opportunity just by a marginal bit,
Unable to get the things i longed for,

Sometimes i wonder, if you guys reading this post wonder, why am i typing all these,
is jack emo? sad? melancholic? Dejected? Upset? Paranoid?
Where is the sanguine, outgoing, comely, jovial, cheerful jack.

He wonders, all those things he have done for others, be it they know or dun know,
anyone appreciate? anyone aware? anyone?
He is tired, he needs a rest, a long long rest.

It doesnt hurt to say thank you, it doesnt hurt to let others know you miss them,
it doesnt cost to smile, it doesnt hurt to love. It hurts only when you dun show it.
Make sense?

HAHA.. people dun wry.. i am fine. just some random thoughts i have when its late a night when everything is so serene...((: SMILE..Follow your heart!!

Friday, May 09, 2008

Tell me

Tell me i need to be strong,
Tell me i can do it,
Tell me it's possible,
Tell me everything will turn out right,
Tell me I need not worry so much,
Tell me you have plans for me,
Tell me to be happy,
Tell me i am still Jack....
I kinda like my blog song, the lyrics is kind of meaningful!

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

I fear!

I fear that I will always be a lonely no. like root 3,
A three is all that’s good and right,
why must my 3 be out of sight,
beneath the vicious sq root sign.

I wished instead I were a 9,
for 9 can forth the evil trick with just some quick arithmetic.
I know I'll never see the sun, as 1.7321,

Such as my reality,
the sad of rationality,
my heart, was this I see?
Another sq root of a 3,
just quietly come walking by,
together now we multiply,
a formal number as we prefer, rejoicing as an integer.

We break free from our moral bonds and
waive away those magic wands,
our sq root sign become unglued,
the love from me has been renewed.