devasted

When i thought my life has reached a high, it smacks me right down again. i am devasted. i spent much of my time in training and in the end i got nothing. i dunno what to say or do anymore. my results as a result has also hit rock bottom. whats worst when i thought granny is going to get better she ended up in s stroke. life. hahha. i guess the only thing i still have or hope to have is you! you are all that i have left. i hope you stand and stay by me through this period even if you are halfway round the world. i really wish you would appear and let me hug you tight right now. i miss you and i love you

Dilemma

God can you tell me what to do? you put me in this situation whereby doing either seems to be wrong or neither is right? Is there a message or a lesson that you want me to learn from here. Studies have not been good either. i feel like i am a stupid piece of tard. While others are scoring and i am not. is that what i am suppose to do? what should i do? please let me know.

Dilemma

Sometimes I just dont know what i should do. A part of me says yes, the other NO! I think i will just let nature takes its course once again.

not forth-looking

Sometimes I wonder why I behave this way. I can give ppl advice but when things come pouring on me i just cant seem to pick up. I think sometimes i just think to much. i guess this is the only place that i can come to, to say out everything i want to say. cause i dont think anyone would understand through what i am going through. sometimes i really admire those ppl who can be nonchalant about things. dont they have feelings? i guess i am just too emotional. if only we have meet earlier? i guess only time will tell. oh well.

CHOICES

I dont know why i am back here, but the fact that i am here, i shall pen down something.
Oh well, Uni life is rather stressful as things are going at a very fast pace and all you could do is write at your fastest pace. sometimes i thought i understood but it turns out that none of it was true. but thank god i've got you. you make bad days good. But i really dont know if what i am doing is right or wrong. can someone please tell me?

BIRTHDAY

I had the best 21st celebration ever. Awesome frens, great food. what more can i ask for. little do i expect to see som many ppl at my house, its like i am holding a party at my house and everyone came. Love to see familiar and those long time no see frens. Sorry to those whom i never really catch up you all with. (: i really hope to spent time with you all catching up. And those who never came i also hope to see you all soon ((: i guessed i am not the only one alone now that i have so many of you all around. ((: love you all to bits.

To Niggers: you guys are the best guys frens that i ever have!!! although its is hard to get the full attendence everytime but this time, we have done it and another quan jia fu picture is taken!! thank you for lameing with me, joking, sharing exp and ..... hahah. you guys know what i am talking abt. Hope this will be the year where we start all our tradition. we have start from our bd and now the next thing is tuan yuan fan time ((:

To 3/4 grace "13" frens

LOL. i think we should come out a name soon. thanks for the awesome k session, i have always crave to that and you guys seems to have just read me like a book. ((: love doing stupid crazy things with you all like shouting, kping each other for leaving early via a vios (opps now a suzuki), jiaoing with OSY! talking the whole night just to let van know how much it takes to be H*A*L. Zw trying to be drunk to blend in with the crowd. Melson's innate ability to know everyone of our frens including their surnames, sometimes even the full name. LASTlY the always handsome andre that thinks of joke almost instantly, like who the heck knows what they do at the age of 50?? LMAO!!!! you guys just rock my world. i hope that we will stay strong tgt and go aust tgt like we have always said. ((: XOXO

To JOYCE and Van and MeiMEI;

Thank you all for going the extra mile to surprise me. meimei secretly giving her no co-ordinating things with them. Although i may scold you but in my heart i really adores you. <3>

TO HPTs:

you guys made me who i am today. if i didnt join hpt, i wouldnt have know you guys and who not be as outgoing as i think i would be now. no matter how long we never meet, the moment we see each other, those memories just ties us back tgt. and out every year christmas party was totally havoc. this year esp was one of the most fun christmas i ever have. hope to see more ppl next time!!! ((: with pride we lead, with humility we serve!!! HPPPPPPPPPTTTTT!!

TO AO ppl:

You guys were the least i expected, i am sry cause i really do not knwo you guys very well, but thanks for gracing this event of mine. i am really grateful to have friends like you all who shall a common goal with me with is to brings student ard to have fun and at the end of the day bringing them back safely for their love ones. Is abt making them smile and laugh. ((: this is how we make our day! ((: Love you peeps ((:

A big thankyou to all those we have came once again. I am that jack who will be always there when you need me. anything just text or call me and i'll be there whenever i can!! ((: (Y)