new realisation

YEA! i am here to blog once again. the reason of me not bllooging that often is because i see no need to as my life is as usual mundane. s: my life has been revolving around refering and doing camps. the rest of the days i just slack. haha. as the results days drew nearer, the anxiety and fear grew larger, i am afraid that i may not make it. i really dunno. what if i cant make it, what shall i do? omg! haiz. i decided that i will not think of it untill the day is here. anyway i found something weird abt human nature. and that is do not mess around with ppl whom you do not really know well as you never know the things you said or do might pissed them off.i may have done is sub-consciously, i dunno but whats done cannot be undone rite? i hope that in future i can be more cautious about my human- human relationship or what you call it. haha. and i found out that my greatest fear is acutally disappointment.

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Disappointment   You are a fun-loving, energetic, and cheerful person. You love adrenaline rushes, and going out at night. You constantly have to be having a great time to feel completely happy. Your biggest fear is not having anything to do, or having a huge disappointment/let down in your life. You hate being sad, and if something in your life suddenly went wrong it would be extremely hard for you to deal with. Just remember that everyone has to deal with hard times. Stay strong, and pretty soon your fun, party life will get right back the way it used to be.
Looked down on
Being Alone
Commitment
Where Your life is Going
Losing Someone
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Friends out there, do you agree with this? haha. try it. *gotten it from Zhi lun's blog! ((:

I dunno what to blog, cause i got nothing to blog. this month what i have been doing is camps and referee for floorball matches. i think that will be able to feed me? idk. haha. ((: i dun mind more jobs with more money. ((: this month was not really fantastic. i hope next month will be better! ((: Happy 牛Year

Happy Belated birthday to myself.

Aunt 2

Good Bye Aunt, May you rest in peace. My birthday wish this year will definitely include you. Thanks for all that you have given. You shall be rewarded. ((:

Aunty

Someone who ones love me. when i was small. she always buy stuff for me. I remeber once i got this pokemon shirt that my mom bought, but on the way home, i lost it. I cried and my mom scolded me. She walk all the way back to buy a new one for me. She never fails to buy a lot of food for me to eat. Her dishes are delicious and her yam cake is imba. but unfortunately, few years back she fell and suffer from a stroke. Then on she never recovered after that. I noe some day she will have to leave to answer god call. and she finally did. ): My biggest aunt. I hope your afterlife will be pleasant.

Spiderman 4

YEAH!!!! NO.4 is coming soon!! WOOO...

WHAT IF DESTINY WAS NEVER MEANT TO BE?

2009

Its the beginning of a new year. i guessed this year will be rather different. its the year that i will be in the army. its a year that i wont be in singapore on my birhtday. its a year where i dont have to study. its a year i hoped that is filled with surprises and hopes. i wished that this year everything will be going well for me. i also hope that my friends will be happy (: OK. till then.

New year

The year is coming to an end in two days time, Ez link going to expire. LMAO. This year seems to pass very fast yet very slow. Very slow during the first 11mths when taking the As. After As. the time seem to pass very fast. I think i really enjoy myself till now. Esp KOREA TRIP. Though i am lazy to blog, but times during there was really really really good. all the snowboarding. Seoul. midnight room partying. Cooking. Hell lots of fun. all the joke as well. 60cents ^^. Hmm. Probably working for as a camp instructor. but still looking for other jobs. so peeps if you got job. nothing to do with MLM intro me ar!! haha. ((: I will not be in singapore for my bd for 2009. will be celebrating it with the trees. HAHA. first time celebrating bd in camp. hope it will be a nice one. there is always a first time for everything. I shall end here. i dunno what to blog anymore. ((; Take care people. And treasure the people around you (:

Korea

Finally i decide to update. actually there not much to update. i am lazy to blog about korea. you can look up the photos on my facebook http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/profile.php?id=538893114&ref=name
((: Overall korea was really fun. esp the little little things that happened. the supper at night in hotel rooms. the **** face. the pork rib, shuoju, and suana!! heaven!!! ((: 60cents! ^^

sick

F*** i hate to fall sick. and stomach flu is not cool! Cramping the whole night is really painful and torturing!... but anyway i am alive so yah. went for training camp in KOTA afterall cause i didnt want to pang seh andi really wanted to go ((: yea. i will regret if i didnt go and thank god there was gary who saved me! yea.
shall blog more when i am back from korea. tata people. (: Dun miss me (:

ENDED

TWO interminable years have finally ended, all those anxieties, stress, anger, tears, sweat... ... are all over. YES! finally i can be old self, as optimistic as ever. JC life is really one of the most tortouous route i ever taken in my entire 12 years of education. Never in my life have i felt so depressed and stress up. But lookng back at it now, i felt so relieved and so happy that i managed to pull it through, It wouldnt be possible if without my friends, who never fail to cheer me up whenever i was down, thank god for you guys. (: i dunno what i will be doing for the rest of my life, but at least for now, i think i should give myself a deserving break for all those happiness i have lost during JC life. i blog more often. Till then ((: IT's PARTY TIME! (:

Alevels

As the days draw near, everyone start to panic. Everyone is bound to feel stress. Even the most cheerful, most stress free person gets affected. The fact that i am typing this shows that i am very stressed out. I dunno why. i scared to fall like how i did during the O levels. I dun wan to fall yet again. Its really a painful journey. Trust me.. those who went through. those who is/are/was/were/will be going though should concur with me. I really dunno. I am not behaving like jack. I get stress out easily. irritated easily. feel lonely easily. ARH I DUNNO.. hahha

TIme heals

Time really heals, things are getting better now, lest we are on talking terms. I dun haope for miracles, perhaps just let things stay the way it is now? haha.. All the best!

Happy birthday

DID you see the cover page of the newspaper today? We are on it. Special Coverage on aNdrE's birthday!! ((: Ranging from migration to you know what.. HHAHA ((:

motivation

WHERE ARE YOU MOTIVATION?

....

IF.

in to me i see

What do you see?

Jack

Hmmm.. had graduation service yesterday. it didnt felt like one though. i think sec4 one is much better? maybe its because of the people around? 4yrs compared to 2? i dunno. There is something missing from yesterday service but i dunno how to expressed it. But never mind about that, A level is what the matter most. 20 more days to go. i dunno if i am prepared but i think i shall do my best. A friend of mine wrote me something and i guess it will stay in my mind for quite a while.


You just have to do your best, God will do the rest ((:

失落非主流

周杰倫 Jay - 失落非主流 Lyrics 歌詞

詞: 方文山 曲: 周杰倫

你的繪畫凌亂著
在這個時刻
我像氣氛純白的白鴿
甜蜜散落了
繼續莫名的拉扯
我還愛你呢
而你斷斷續續唱著歌
假裝沒事了
時間過了 走了
愛情面臨選擇
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
一開始都不快樂
你用卡片紙寫著
有些愛隻給到這 真的痛了
怎麼了 你累了 說好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不說了 愛淡了 夢遠了
開心與不開心依稀數著你在不舍
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻
我都還記得
你不懂了 說好的 幸福呢
我錯了 淚干了 放手了 后悔了
隻是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著
要怎麼停呢
曲周杰倫歌詞提供再興
你的繪畫凌亂著
在這個時刻
我像氣氛純白的白鴿
甜蜜散落了
繼續莫名的拉扯
我還愛你呢
而你斷斷續續唱著歌
假裝沒事了
時間過了 走了
愛情面臨選擇
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
一開始都不快樂
你用卡片紙寫著
有些愛隻給到這 真的痛了
怎麼了 你累了 說好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不說了 愛淡了 夢遠了
開心與不開心依稀數著你在不舍
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻
我都還記得
你不懂了 說好的 幸福呢
我錯了 淚干了 放手了 后悔了
隻是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著
要怎麼停呢
怎麼了 你累了
說好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不說了
愛淡了 夢遠了
我都還記得
你不懂了 說好的 幸福呢
我錯了 淚干了 放手了 后悔了
隻是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著
要怎麼停呢
為什麼這時候忍心離我而去

A levels

As time draw closer, the stress gets bigger. The stress of wanting to perform, the stress of not going to do well, the stress of not being able to do prelim papers. the stress of everything just seems to amass when time flies.

Even the ever so optimistic, sanguine, happy-go-lucky, jack is feeling it. Never in his entire 18 years of living, has he felt so stressed up. Thank God for the friends he have around, in school, outside school. i really do not know how to continue any longer. I just hoped it pass quickly. and i mean real quick! Cant wait for 18th. 9.16am! when the CPE says; Alright Pencils down! And its going to rock! More Thrilling then the O level feeling!

Jack is _ _ _ _ _ _. He wants....