ndp

Finally, it all comes to an end. 4 months of preparation, just for the very day where singaporean unite together to give our well wishes for singapore. 45 years of safe living, that counld have happen by accident. but anyway, i think i'm so going to miss my monday off. back to 5 day work week. back to camp. facing KNQWERTEFJNC ppl. seriously. they are getting on my nerve. thank god its just half a year more. ((:

No one can never give up on you, only you yourself can.

someday

Somehow, someday is what people always say when they want to find excuse for themselves. but it just takes one day for many things to happen. Just one day.

People only realise your importance when you are not around them. ironic.

Anyway, I got so much things but so little money.

I wan to buy new tv, renovate my room, new watch, new hp, more clothes, new shoes. oh well. got to save up soon. ((:

what a month

July is a very short month for me actually. ndp offs and overseas vacation just helps to make your life in army so short yippee!! haha. anyway this month have been a un-couple month i think. i see so many of my frens in r/s problem, sometimes i think if it is worth it a not to get into a r/s. i think somehow, someday two people is going to fall in love forever till they die. But b4 they are able to do so, they go through a series of test b4 they are eventually get together. god is fair. he created us in a very special way. he gave us two hands, two legs, two eyes, two ears. two nostrils, two kidneys. but why only one heart. actually he created two. just that the girl has one and the boy has the other. ((; rite? haha.

have you ever felt lonely. no one to meet. and wished you have someone to call upon who will be there all the time? a companion? i dunno. sometime i just feel this way. maybe because i am the only boy less my father in the house. my others siblings are female. which makes me only having myself to talk to and maybe spidey? haha. but i am lucky to have frens around me whom i know i can depend one. but sometimes you just feel that they have their own stuff to attend to. you may treat them one way but they may treat you another. but true frens will treat you like how you treat them so fret not. ((;

REDANG

Back from a short vacation. ((: yippeee. REDANG!!!! cool place. beaches. sand. a place where you can let down your guards and just chill. did many things that never in my 20 years of life did. like ear candling? full body massage? snokelling? air brush tatoo. really a very unique exprience with awesome frens. ((: photos on fb soon i HOPE! haha. ((: back to reality. back to camp. back to the emo me? haha.

DIMSUM

Though i wat a FML friday, weekends was great. met up with chunfu and reagen and we treated reagen to dinner for his bd. ((: yea. sat was not much just duty and watching 富 贵 门 。 quite an awesome show. and i am finishing soon!! yea ((:

sunday was good. rested at home b4 heading out to tampines to ref. Very happy to see eileen there! haha. thought got no fate to see. but in the end we still saw each other. haven seen you in two weeks. anw. she and tania waited for me to ref over. (gulity much) then tania drove us to bkt. but it was closed! )): saded. but we went over to geylang for dimsum! IT WAS AWE- wait for it- SOME man!!! love dimsum. esp prawn stuff like har gao!!! YEA!! can eat like 10000 of them. haha. then went over for some or nee. that very much summaries that day.

Anyway, sometimes ppl feel down all of a sudden, they are just sad, dunno for what, i guessed its just some days when things just dont go the way you plan it out to be. oh well. live it, or leave it! ((:

melacholy

TODAY IS SERIOUSLY FML!

Early in the morning, i was full of confidence for tp, all went well till it goes to the road. seriously frk the tester. oh well. sad ttm.

And i recalled back to camp again for investigation. WTF. seriously. no mood to blog.

somebody Embrasses-moi? yea i noe it's not the end of the world. but it's just i guess disappointment? you know as usual.

WHoo.

Start of duty month.

actually i think we are now all numb by duties. we will just do and suck thumb. actually there's nothing bad about doing duty cause you are basically living in your own world. haha.

like every other saturday, its NDP!! whoo. today was a rather short one as the p5 kids bus jammed up the city march route so we dont need to form up. what makes today so funny was the they actually took the TRS to call my hp

TRS: Is this 3rd sgt jack?

Me: ehmmm, uhmm ya?

TRS: IRON CHARIOT x3

Me: SMLJ?(never say out). ok.

Me: think hard. wa. SHOCK.its the recall codename.

Me; call ISAIAH.

ISAIAH: LOL. its shawn who called you using the TRS. LOl.

Me: !@#$%^&*() LOL. hahha.

Frking epic man. ((:

end of daY

Song of the day. 听 海

297th

THis is the 297th post. I vividly rmb setting us this blog all for english purpose.But it ends up after 5 years that i am still using it. When i look through some post, i felt rather childish at some of them, but then again, at that time i am sure i wouldnt be thinking this way.

5 years have passed and so did a lot happened. walking out from you wasnt that easy as i thought it would be, but i did and time will really heal. i dont hate you for what you did, i just thought you ought to explain. but i guessed something are just better off leaving it the way it is.

I think i have grew a lot this five years, not physically as you can see. haha. still as short. i think that is one thing that bothers me sometimes. Is like dude. i am like so short and girls nowadays are getting so tall!!! how to find the right one? oh well. lets see how things go. Mingyan the great has calculated some of my pa zi and he said i'd have a wife. let's see if he is as accurate as paul the octopus. haha. jk

I've been thinking all this while that i revolved my life around ppl. without them there's no me. I do much but i dont hope for anything in return, i just love to see people happy and will be delighted if i am the one who make them smile! I think i am born this way. haha.

no mood to blog already tata

Times with you.

Times nowadays is really great. time spent in camp

Watched Knight and Day and IP man over the week, both movies were awesome, but mingyan told me that the IP man movie was all fake, not true at all. sian max.

Tuesday was fun filled. Virgin trip to Bukit timah and Bukit batok nature reserve! LOL. two wondering souls waking around aimlessly, exploring places, seeing chickens and baby chicks, knowing facts about lychen etc. ((: Climbing over fence, cabbing at short distance. haha. Last stop was Yang Rou Tang. Love it maX. thank you for the fabulous day!

Wednesday was shag max. Butter was boring.

Thursday was metting up session with kl where she never fail to update me about her life. she just told me not to be a relationship guru cause she hates it that i am always right and that she would have to pay me next time if i become professional

Friday was dinner @ Sapparo with eileen. The ramen soup was awesome and the on too, just that it was a bit salty. The gouza was AWESOME!! i just love dumpling!!! ((: and prawns! bought some jap food @ japanese delight and bought tong ruo shao! Yay. chestnuts and red bean paste is gd. Red bean is my fave too. red bean soup and potong!

Sat was ndp! without sleep cr3. Hope you guys enjoyed the show, though it was rainin, or mao mao yu. but nonetheless the show was worth it rite? (: TimbreD! Long time since i went there. It is still one of my fav place to chill and relax. Its just different at arts house or substation! OLD SCHOOL ROCKS my socks. Finally as promised i brought you there, 142 steps was worth it rite? ((: Roast duck pizza ftw! yea!! Yesterday duo was awesome too. singing my fav songs almost all the way. OK i will try to beat you in finger guessing! RRARRR!!! Martini wasnt that great. but overall i did enjoy myself much! ((: hope you too!

The whole week was rather shagg, having to take photos in no.3 and sleeping less than 4 hrs a day due to wc. but it was all worth it (: i sure did enjoy myself this week!!!

Sometimes it is not the place you are at that matters, it is the person you are with at that time that matters. I think this life i am born out to be a listener. I love to listen to ppl when they talk about their lifes and stuff, be it good or bad, one call and i will be there. I think i have this strange i dunno that connects with people. how i am able to understand them and know them. It's strange how i know it too. Maybe i just realise the smallest thing? But it can be my weakness too. ): Anyway i love the way i am just that i am short ): haha. hope for better weeks ahead.

Thanks for being such a gd fren and companion, her beautiful jade. ((:

Movie

She's out of my league was hilarious!!!! haha. *try pronouncing it faster (wm)

Knight and Day was Awesome too. 2 movies down. many more to go ((: yea.

Happy people attract happy people!!

love

When you know that something is impossible or you dont want it to happen, then dont commit and fall too deep, because you will only get more hurt. (:

Embrasses-moi?

myself

Only when you start putting what you think into action, then you will get the result.

Only when you start procrastination,then you will get what you want.

Only when you start to feel happy,then you will be happy and so do the people around you

Only when you start loving yourself,then you will be loved by others.

Only when you start, then you will...

AIrplane

Sometimes, its best to leave the beautiful things beatifully.

sick

Bing dao le.

I' guess it's time i get use to being lonely.

happy day

When you are happy, you attract happy people. (: lol. today's long day at ndp. walked up and down from suntec to padang. Perspire like no body business. but i did a good deed today by help one guy to retrive his trambone. He was nice to thank me ((:

When you give someone something and hope for something in return, it's no longer a gift but an arrangement.

BFF

Some point in life, you just dunno where you headed, where you belong and why you live for. You just spent day by day, living each day like every other day. There comes a point in your life that people come and go, there are people who stays and there are people who doesnt, those that stays maybe your good friend. but those that doesnt, does not mean they arent your's. Maybe it just ended up in a bad way. Sometimes you wish to be rich. you see people with cash, cars and they are around your age you asked, "why is heaven so unfair" what did he/she do to deserve all that? but you never know that they may come from broken families etc.

People only see things from one side sometimes, they forget about the other side. before you start questioning people why they treat you this way, think about how you have treated them in the first place now or even last time. When you are down and upset, who is there for you. when you are lonely and cold, who is there to accompany you and let you feel warm. When you are happy and want to share your joy, is that person who is around you still around, or random people start coming out to share with you. Often it is these people who share your lowest time with you, that wil be your closest friend.

This week, pass pretty fast, Nothing much happen actually, apart from pasting stickers and writing all over padang, walking 10km in a day from F1 paddock to the Marina bay sands. This sat is sure going to be rowdy as we move towards padang.

Anyway A-team was awesome ((: Adios.

on the line

I hope this week would be better, cause the last weeks sucks, from pses, to major upsets. it just makes me down like a lonely boy.

Anyway, BFF, i dunno if you have forgiven ( dont dare to contact you)but if you are reading this, i hope you have, cause i really dont want to lose this friendship due to this. there is always a lull period, but i hope after this incident, it would only make us closer and not drift apart. we still haven planned our assumed trip yet. we have been there for each other through thick and thin. midnight tau huey! jiao-ings, 2mins to lose 120$ and much more. i just hope 7 of us will stay strong for each other. ((:

SAD

Sometimes its hard for instant forgiveness, it will just make that person just too piss off. When time kicks in, you wonder have the other party forgave you, or are they still waiting for you to apologize. Friendship is on the line, nobody wants to lose a fren. esp for me.

Yesterday i talked to someone whom i have not talked to for quite sometime. she reminds me that i have been like taking care of ppl all my life, like its my forte. who is going to care abt me then? Sometime ppl care because they cared, and sometimes they care because they hope the other party would reciprocate. I know there's fren out there who cares. Sometimes you go all out, but get disappointed with the responses and actions by others. Why make things so complicated, sometimes to make it worst, it looks like you are the only one who gives a damn and other just being nonchalant. Then you think, why should you give a damn then. they can like that why i cant be the same. When you settle down to think, someone has to do it, if they dont, it will still come down to you. and that's the start of the vicious cycle.

Actions speaks louder than words, but sometimes, you just dont know when and where to start.

Friend

Sometimes when you thought it was all fun but other ppl dont think so, shit happens. when you wan to salvage things. it just gets worst. no matter how strong the friendship, it will take a long time to heal, but the damage, the crack will always be there. Time will heal, but the scar will always be there.

Sometimes you wonder, you do a million good things and ppl will only rmb a few, but you just need to do one wrong, and ppl rmb it a lifetime. you just cant get the best of both worlds, finding a win-win in every situation. You are gd to one, you hurt the other. you wan to get angry, in the end the other party becomes more angry. and you feel frk up. funny isnt it?

this week aint really a gd week for me. dont feel like talking anymore.

ANGRY

Today is sucky. EMOed me. ignts.