BIRTHDAY

I had the best 21st celebration ever. Awesome frens, great food. what more can i ask for. little do i expect to see som many ppl at my house, its like i am holding a party at my house and everyone came. Love to see familiar and those long time no see frens. Sorry to those whom i never really catch up you all with. (: i really hope to spent time with you all catching up. And those who never came i also hope to see you all soon ((: i guessed i am not the only one alone now that i have so many of you all around. ((: love you all to bits.

To Niggers: you guys are the best guys frens that i ever have!!! although its is hard to get the full attendence everytime but this time, we have done it and another quan jia fu picture is taken!! thank you for lameing with me, joking, sharing exp and ..... hahah. you guys know what i am talking abt. Hope this will be the year where we start all our tradition. we have start from our bd and now the next thing is tuan yuan fan time ((:

To 3/4 grace "13" frens

LOL. i think we should come out a name soon. thanks for the awesome k session, i have always crave to that and you guys seems to have just read me like a book. ((: love doing stupid crazy things with you all like shouting, kping each other for leaving early via a vios (opps now a suzuki), jiaoing with OSY! talking the whole night just to let van know how much it takes to be H*A*L. Zw trying to be drunk to blend in with the crowd. Melson's innate ability to know everyone of our frens including their surnames, sometimes even the full name. LASTlY the always handsome andre that thinks of joke almost instantly, like who the heck knows what they do at the age of 50?? LMAO!!!! you guys just rock my world. i hope that we will stay strong tgt and go aust tgt like we have always said. ((: XOXO

To JOYCE and Van and MeiMEI;

Thank you all for going the extra mile to surprise me. meimei secretly giving her no co-ordinating things with them. Although i may scold you but in my heart i really adores you. <3>

TO HPTs:

you guys made me who i am today. if i didnt join hpt, i wouldnt have know you guys and who not be as outgoing as i think i would be now. no matter how long we never meet, the moment we see each other, those memories just ties us back tgt. and out every year christmas party was totally havoc. this year esp was one of the most fun christmas i ever have. hope to see more ppl next time!!! ((: with pride we lead, with humility we serve!!! HPPPPPPPPPTTTTT!!

TO AO ppl:

You guys were the least i expected, i am sry cause i really do not knwo you guys very well, but thanks for gracing this event of mine. i am really grateful to have friends like you all who shall a common goal with me with is to brings student ard to have fun and at the end of the day bringing them back safely for their love ones. Is abt making them smile and laugh. ((: this is how we make our day! ((: Love you peeps ((:

A big thankyou to all those we have came once again. I am that jack who will be always there when you need me. anything just text or call me and i'll be there whenever i can!! ((: (Y)

Passion

Sometimes when you want to give up, just rmb those things that have push you this far till now. I tried my best, or i think i did. with a sprained ankle. we still lost. I am definitely not okay with losing, who likes to lose anyway. Oh well. i guess i will just have to keep pushing. till the day where i dont see the need to any more. It's is suppose to be something that would make me happy rather then something that would bother me. What dont kill you only makes you stronger i guess.

and ard 70 days more to freedom. please come soon as i cannot tolerate those people anymore.

Back to square one

I realise for most of my life I've always been putting others b4 self, thinking about how others will feel etc. i never really cared about how i feel and what not. Sometimes i just dunno what to do maybe its just the way i am. i dunno. maybe it's time ti start loving myself and starting thinking more for myself.

Lonely

Long time since i last blogged, just felt like doing it today.

Today was kind of a bad day for me. yes. i lost the match. not the team. i was the liability instead of the asset as i always thought i would be. ); Its weird how i know i can do it better then the rest but time and time again i just flop. thinking that there will be a second chance. NO. there is no second chance. i dunno. i was totally off the whole match. not talking or whatsoever. I have been playing it for close to 5 years? or more. and i think i haven improve much. No point talking abt it. Is over already. I just need some super cheesy strawberry aka SCS to cheer me up. I'll proved my worth in the next match. Thats the promise i will do for myself.

Do you ever feel lonely? like there no one free for you. or there's nothing do to. I dunno sometime i feel this way. or maybe when i am sad i feel this way. Actually i'm a rather shy person. keeping things to myself. but if you asked i will say. haha. weird rite? i dunno. i just hope to find someone whom understands me even if i dont have to speak up much. or accompany me through the gd times and bad times.

AND I WONDER IF I EVER CROSSED YOUR MIND, FOR ME IT HAPPENS ALL THE TIME.

ndp

Finally, it all comes to an end. 4 months of preparation, just for the very day where singaporean unite together to give our well wishes for singapore. 45 years of safe living, that counld have happen by accident. but anyway, i think i'm so going to miss my monday off. back to 5 day work week. back to camp. facing KNQWERTEFJNC ppl. seriously. they are getting on my nerve. thank god its just half a year more. ((:

No one can never give up on you, only you yourself can.

someday

Somehow, someday is what people always say when they want to find excuse for themselves. but it just takes one day for many things to happen. Just one day.

People only realise your importance when you are not around them. ironic.

Anyway, I got so much things but so little money.

I wan to buy new tv, renovate my room, new watch, new hp, more clothes, new shoes. oh well. got to save up soon. ((:

what a month

July is a very short month for me actually. ndp offs and overseas vacation just helps to make your life in army so short yippee!! haha. anyway this month have been a un-couple month i think. i see so many of my frens in r/s problem, sometimes i think if it is worth it a not to get into a r/s. i think somehow, someday two people is going to fall in love forever till they die. But b4 they are able to do so, they go through a series of test b4 they are eventually get together. god is fair. he created us in a very special way. he gave us two hands, two legs, two eyes, two ears. two nostrils, two kidneys. but why only one heart. actually he created two. just that the girl has one and the boy has the other. ((; rite? haha.

have you ever felt lonely. no one to meet. and wished you have someone to call upon who will be there all the time? a companion? i dunno. sometime i just feel this way. maybe because i am the only boy less my father in the house. my others siblings are female. which makes me only having myself to talk to and maybe spidey? haha. but i am lucky to have frens around me whom i know i can depend one. but sometimes you just feel that they have their own stuff to attend to. you may treat them one way but they may treat you another. but true frens will treat you like how you treat them so fret not. ((;

REDANG

Back from a short vacation. ((: yippeee. REDANG!!!! cool place. beaches. sand. a place where you can let down your guards and just chill. did many things that never in my 20 years of life did. like ear candling? full body massage? snokelling? air brush tatoo. really a very unique exprience with awesome frens. ((: photos on fb soon i HOPE! haha. ((: back to reality. back to camp. back to the emo me? haha.

DIMSUM

Though i wat a FML friday, weekends was great. met up with chunfu and reagen and we treated reagen to dinner for his bd. ((: yea. sat was not much just duty and watching 富 贵 门 。 quite an awesome show. and i am finishing soon!! yea ((:

sunday was good. rested at home b4 heading out to tampines to ref. Very happy to see eileen there! haha. thought got no fate to see. but in the end we still saw each other. haven seen you in two weeks. anw. she and tania waited for me to ref over. (gulity much) then tania drove us to bkt. but it was closed! )): saded. but we went over to geylang for dimsum! IT WAS AWE- wait for it- SOME man!!! love dimsum. esp prawn stuff like har gao!!! YEA!! can eat like 10000 of them. haha. then went over for some or nee. that very much summaries that day.

Anyway, sometimes ppl feel down all of a sudden, they are just sad, dunno for what, i guessed its just some days when things just dont go the way you plan it out to be. oh well. live it, or leave it! ((:

melacholy

TODAY IS SERIOUSLY FML!

Early in the morning, i was full of confidence for tp, all went well till it goes to the road. seriously frk the tester. oh well. sad ttm.

And i recalled back to camp again for investigation. WTF. seriously. no mood to blog.

somebody Embrasses-moi? yea i noe it's not the end of the world. but it's just i guess disappointment? you know as usual.

WHoo.

Start of duty month.

actually i think we are now all numb by duties. we will just do and suck thumb. actually there's nothing bad about doing duty cause you are basically living in your own world. haha.

like every other saturday, its NDP!! whoo. today was a rather short one as the p5 kids bus jammed up the city march route so we dont need to form up. what makes today so funny was the they actually took the TRS to call my hp

TRS: Is this 3rd sgt jack?

Me: ehmmm, uhmm ya?

TRS: IRON CHARIOT x3

Me: SMLJ?(never say out). ok.

Me: think hard. wa. SHOCK.its the recall codename.

Me; call ISAIAH.

ISAIAH: LOL. its shawn who called you using the TRS. LOl.

Me: !@#$%^&*() LOL. hahha.

Frking epic man. ((:

end of daY

Song of the day. 听 海

297th

THis is the 297th post. I vividly rmb setting us this blog all for english purpose.But it ends up after 5 years that i am still using it. When i look through some post, i felt rather childish at some of them, but then again, at that time i am sure i wouldnt be thinking this way.

5 years have passed and so did a lot happened. walking out from you wasnt that easy as i thought it would be, but i did and time will really heal. i dont hate you for what you did, i just thought you ought to explain. but i guessed something are just better off leaving it the way it is.

I think i have grew a lot this five years, not physically as you can see. haha. still as short. i think that is one thing that bothers me sometimes. Is like dude. i am like so short and girls nowadays are getting so tall!!! how to find the right one? oh well. lets see how things go. Mingyan the great has calculated some of my pa zi and he said i'd have a wife. let's see if he is as accurate as paul the octopus. haha. jk

I've been thinking all this while that i revolved my life around ppl. without them there's no me. I do much but i dont hope for anything in return, i just love to see people happy and will be delighted if i am the one who make them smile! I think i am born this way. haha.

no mood to blog already tata

Times with you.

Times nowadays is really great. time spent in camp

Watched Knight and Day and IP man over the week, both movies were awesome, but mingyan told me that the IP man movie was all fake, not true at all. sian max.

Tuesday was fun filled. Virgin trip to Bukit timah and Bukit batok nature reserve! LOL. two wondering souls waking around aimlessly, exploring places, seeing chickens and baby chicks, knowing facts about lychen etc. ((: Climbing over fence, cabbing at short distance. haha. Last stop was Yang Rou Tang. Love it maX. thank you for the fabulous day!

Wednesday was shag max. Butter was boring.

Thursday was metting up session with kl where she never fail to update me about her life. she just told me not to be a relationship guru cause she hates it that i am always right and that she would have to pay me next time if i become professional

Friday was dinner @ Sapparo with eileen. The ramen soup was awesome and the on too, just that it was a bit salty. The gouza was AWESOME!! i just love dumpling!!! ((: and prawns! bought some jap food @ japanese delight and bought tong ruo shao! Yay. chestnuts and red bean paste is gd. Red bean is my fave too. red bean soup and potong!

Sat was ndp! without sleep cr3. Hope you guys enjoyed the show, though it was rainin, or mao mao yu. but nonetheless the show was worth it rite? (: TimbreD! Long time since i went there. It is still one of my fav place to chill and relax. Its just different at arts house or substation! OLD SCHOOL ROCKS my socks. Finally as promised i brought you there, 142 steps was worth it rite? ((: Roast duck pizza ftw! yea!! Yesterday duo was awesome too. singing my fav songs almost all the way. OK i will try to beat you in finger guessing! RRARRR!!! Martini wasnt that great. but overall i did enjoy myself much! ((: hope you too!

The whole week was rather shagg, having to take photos in no.3 and sleeping less than 4 hrs a day due to wc. but it was all worth it (: i sure did enjoy myself this week!!!

Sometimes it is not the place you are at that matters, it is the person you are with at that time that matters. I think this life i am born out to be a listener. I love to listen to ppl when they talk about their lifes and stuff, be it good or bad, one call and i will be there. I think i have this strange i dunno that connects with people. how i am able to understand them and know them. It's strange how i know it too. Maybe i just realise the smallest thing? But it can be my weakness too. ): Anyway i love the way i am just that i am short ): haha. hope for better weeks ahead.

Thanks for being such a gd fren and companion, her beautiful jade. ((:

Movie

She's out of my league was hilarious!!!! haha. *try pronouncing it faster (wm)

Knight and Day was Awesome too. 2 movies down. many more to go ((: yea.

Happy people attract happy people!!

love

When you know that something is impossible or you dont want it to happen, then dont commit and fall too deep, because you will only get more hurt. (:

Embrasses-moi?

myself

Only when you start putting what you think into action, then you will get the result.

Only when you start procrastination,then you will get what you want.

Only when you start to feel happy,then you will be happy and so do the people around you

Only when you start loving yourself,then you will be loved by others.

Only when you start, then you will...

AIrplane

Sometimes, its best to leave the beautiful things beatifully.

sick

Bing dao le.

I' guess it's time i get use to being lonely.

happy day

When you are happy, you attract happy people. (: lol. today's long day at ndp. walked up and down from suntec to padang. Perspire like no body business. but i did a good deed today by help one guy to retrive his trambone. He was nice to thank me ((:

When you give someone something and hope for something in return, it's no longer a gift but an arrangement.

BFF

Some point in life, you just dunno where you headed, where you belong and why you live for. You just spent day by day, living each day like every other day. There comes a point in your life that people come and go, there are people who stays and there are people who doesnt, those that stays maybe your good friend. but those that doesnt, does not mean they arent your's. Maybe it just ended up in a bad way. Sometimes you wish to be rich. you see people with cash, cars and they are around your age you asked, "why is heaven so unfair" what did he/she do to deserve all that? but you never know that they may come from broken families etc.

People only see things from one side sometimes, they forget about the other side. before you start questioning people why they treat you this way, think about how you have treated them in the first place now or even last time. When you are down and upset, who is there for you. when you are lonely and cold, who is there to accompany you and let you feel warm. When you are happy and want to share your joy, is that person who is around you still around, or random people start coming out to share with you. Often it is these people who share your lowest time with you, that wil be your closest friend.

This week, pass pretty fast, Nothing much happen actually, apart from pasting stickers and writing all over padang, walking 10km in a day from F1 paddock to the Marina bay sands. This sat is sure going to be rowdy as we move towards padang.

Anyway A-team was awesome ((: Adios.