Prayers

Sometimes I really wonder if my prayers were really heard. Life is really getting boring nowadays i must say. Although I got two other siblings at home, but i still feel alone. sometimes i just really wan a companion. someone that you can count on. someone that love you, be there for you. Not that i boast, but i am pretty sure i do make a very gd fren if you know me well enough. just dont take advantage of me. (: sometimes you just wonder, why is it that ppl do not reciprocate what you done onto them (the gd ones) they just remember the bad stuffs that you have done and bare grudges over them. You can do a million of goods things, but you just have to do one wrong and people will always remember that one thing that is wrong and forget the million good things that you have done for them. Human nature. Irony?

boon or bane

Sometimes, i got the ability to predict things, other times its just that i am lucky, or just that i am more keen and sensitive to the things happening around me.

Probably because god knows when i last felt cared and loved. thats probably one of the reason why i dont feel happy for longest time. i know that there are ppl who cares and stuff. perhaps i just need companion. IRONY?


Every time you walk away or run away , You take a piece of me with you there.

unhappy

I just dunno why i just cant be happy.

HYPE

I am feeling super hype now!! OMG OMG! this week has been a very slack week after all. Tuesday all I did was to swim and relax! LOL. then wednesday was a bit tougher. just ovm and sim. But anyway. Wednesday got psed! was rather sad as i have got like no plans since my only plan was to meet them. I wanted to call justin out, but then i know he is working so didnt want to disturb him, wanted to call zoe out since she has all the time in the world now that her exams are over. but i never did that. i dont like to get ps actually. ok who likes it but then. oh well. anyway. i went to bishan with army frens for dinner. then went to drink koi, then this amazing thing happened. its like god knows i miss them and make them appear before me. i saw justin at KOI with mysterious lady LOL. but i was like omg! wT! no way. i told him abt that i wanted to call him, i swear its true. Then talk to him for a while then i dont want to disturb him so left him. we meeting sooN yea!! ((: then after taking my koi, we walked to J8 and then OMG! WTF! i saw zoe, min min and shu mei! SERIOUSLY man. HAPPY TTM. see two ppl whom i wanted to call them to meet but didnt. that really made my day sia. With mg around, my days will never be the same!!! ((:

TOTAL HYPENESS!!!

Life

life is like a video game, sometimes it gets exciting when you explore new things, sometimes it gets draggy due to the cut scene. The amount of credits you have depends on your previous life and the goods you do in this. some game can be never ending, some might just end abruptly. But whatever is it. you are the one in charge of your own game. so start taking it seriously now. (:

Reason for the realisation abv, one of my juniors, an avid hpt member passed away after slipping into a coma due to a car accident. Life is so fragile. Although some ppl might be tough on the outside. small viruses can already take them down like squashing an ant. My recollection of him was him being a small and cute boy. speaking in those sha sha voice. a ncc member, I was their camp chief for their training camp so I know each one of them. Maybe I have not train them well? maybe the programme wasn't as it turn out to be. But no matter what, he still pass out as a hpt.

I did spend sometime to think about hpt like again. HPT was like a family to me, a place where people joke around and have fun, and at the same time fostering camaraderie while working together to up a good show. Those Freaking SMART! late night camp planning at mac, it was all worth it as you see the smile on the campers face and everyone being safe. All was good till something, someone mess it all up. what's the point when eventually you win in the end? are the people very happy about it? as educators, isn't it your obligation to nurture students, and ensure that they grow up as happy and knowledgeable children. What's with all these politics, bringing in personal grudges into the whole thing wasn't so professional at all. so not very cool! but oh well. Whatever has happened, happened. No point crying over the spilled milk.

OK on a lighter note, celebrated Zw birthday yesterday, they got him a LIVERPOOL JERSEY! and a shirt from slirpingape . cool shirt! had a great time. everytime when i am with them, be it niggers or grace clique, its always fun filled with LOUD laughter ((: looking forward to spending time with you peeps again soon. and also to friends i have not seen for days, weeks, months and year! LOL ((: see ya. i love you guys.

KEEP SAFE.

LOVE?

This week pass quite fast, probably because the week starts on Tuesday? Amry is becoming more hetic i think from now to ndp and to aao. i thought time would pass rather fast but someone seems to have freeze my time, slowed it down for me. I do not hate him, but I just dont like him, the moment he open his mouth. i just feel like slapping it shut. but anyway lets not talk abt the sad thing.

On a happier note, weekends was great for almost all the later part of the day.

Friday met Eileen for dinner at mi mi ji di! HAHAH. ((: glad she liked the place. She is really someone very special to me. as somehow sometime she can read my mind. I dunno how but she can really do that. ha. and we never seems to run out of things to talk. Although she annoys me at times of conveniently not replying me, but she is showing much improvement already. HAHA ((:

Sat: met up with nigger bros. Needless to say, when they are around, fun is around. ((: words just cant explained. i just love them

Sun: reagen and chunfu for prawning. the trios are out once again. although i always keep quiet sometimes but actually it's just that u dunno how to express myself. if i cannot say anything nice, might as well dont talk. but strangely enough they can somehow get me to talk. LOVE YOU PPL

Thanks for making my this weekend so special.

FRIENDS

I love it when ppl send me sweet or random messages.

SELFISH

Sometimes you juse cant help feeling frustrated when you are doing a lot of things and other ppl just ROC. YOu feel bad when you ask others to do stuff, you feel unsafe to entrust something to others cause you may end up doing double work. FML. Does capable people always have to do more? WTF man seriously. One day i might just explode.

I am pretty nice guy, but that doesnt mean you can take adv of me. There's a limit to everything, Dont push it!

Time

When something comes and hit you very hard. you think at that point of time. There will be no return, you are not going to feel better, you are not going to be better, you are just going to suffer. People always come and comfort you telling you that time will heal. You just do not want to believe. How is time ever going to heal for a broken relationship, a lost of loved ones and etc. But those who have walk through it knows it, it is true that time does it, it helps people to forgive and forget.It helps to relieve the tension, give you more time to think logically and rationally. TRUE?

(: cause I think it's true.

Weirdos

Actually, i think humans are very weird ppl, they can love ppl, hate ppl, bring down ppl, laugh at ppl for no particular reason. They may just be talking bad about ppl at this end, but the next moment you see them tgt tgt. LOL. Weird isnt it?

Coming to one year solider. lots i think i have seen, and i think that almost enough for me. Really sick and tired, when you are more capable, you do more work, so why the f* you be capable for sometimes you think, but it just runs in the blood i guess.

With great powers, comes great responsibility. (:

Dont say for the sake or saying, say it because you mean it.

BENJAMIN BUTTON

Its saddening to see someone you love lying there, not being able to help and all you could do is just be there to make them feel better. You will never know what will happen tmr, cherish everyday like your last day, then only you will live each day to the fullest. STAY STRONG!

Tears welled.its is disheartening to see those children you have "rear" neglects you in the end. what the point of giving birth to so many, yet its just a few who gives a damn. i wouldnt be surprise if the day you are gone "touch wood" they would be quarrelling. not even letting you leave in peace. ): But heaven have eyes so do you. you know whose gd to you, and whose those NATO.

I rmb when i was young, you dont like me, you always scold me, say why am i so ji cha aka talkative. I also dont like you cause you always scold me. I dont like you cause you dont like me. HAHA. typical child mindset. But things starts to change as i grew older, i am more aware of things. You start to like me, so do I. (:

Anyway, watched i not stupid 2 on channel 8 yesterday, nostalgia kicked in as 3 grace classroom was in the show, so many things happened in that classroom, happy and sad. Makes me kind of miss phs, the food last time, the teachers(some of them) the buildings, the people. the carnival, the soccer with uniform. times where red shirt stood proud. times in the lib, com lab, sci lab, music room. NPCC, floorball. so many memories. which i could only look back now. (: oh well, this is life.

chapfallen

Sometimes I wonder why is it like that. why is it that some people are gd, some of them are bad. Sometimes you wonder, why is it that people must make you life miserable, some must make things hard for you. is this really a dog eat dog world? Actually just touched your heart, did i ever say no to all your request? did i ever not do things b4 hand? I have always done things in advanced, if not to the best of my ability, you dont appreciate nevermind, but at least have the courtesy to do something nice in return. what's the point of accumulating them and not able to "redeem" them. its not like i asked for a lot, it's just once a month. Dont ask so many reason, if i am happy, i would be more than willing to do what you asked me to if its within my limits. i hope things will turn out better, i am just hoping, after all its just 10more months

Blast

random msgs and surprises is what i like. ha. maybe i just need some care and concern.

No matter how strong one appear on the outside, he has a weak side.

i hope that she will be fine, after all she's the only one've left with. (:

feeling elmo's fren

Melancholic

Its funny sometimes how directors get their ideas to film a movie, could it be from a personal experience or from just pure imagination. Sometime, people just wan to shift their responsibility, its so easy to say I dont know anything, you just shifted your responsibility. It's amazing how people can me nonchalant about things. claiming recognition where there only did a small part of it while others have been working their ass off. The person lying there is your mother. she not even died yet, and there you'll are fighting as though as its not already bad enough. Cant you just spare a bit of your frking heart to care for a old lady. It does not matter how many times you visit her, it can be only once but that one time you go there because you truly care and not because you go for the sake of it. FOR GOODNESS SAKE, cant you adults wake up! SERIOUSLY, HEAVEN is always watching over you,they know what you are up to and who you really ar.

It's disheartening to see the sight. Tears just welled. JUST MAKE SURE SHE IS FINE AND THAT'S ALL I ASK.

WE THE KINGS

Do you remember the nights
We'd stay up just laughing
Smiling for hours
At anything
Remember the nights
We drove around crazy in love

When the lights go out
We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be a dream

Do you remember the nights
We made our way dreaming
Hoping of being
Someone big
We were so young then
We were too crazy
In love

When the lights go out
We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be a dream

Whoa whoa
Whoa whoa
Whoa whoa


When the lights go out
We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be


When the lights go out
We'll be safe and sound We'll take control of the world
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be a dream

We all have a dream, you always thought that once it is fulfil you will be happy, but then again you have another dream, you just keep dreaming more and more till you forget that you cant fulfil your dream by dreaming it. Some parents are classic examples, ie to say, if their dreams cannot be fulfil, they pass it on to their children and put it nicely as their dreams. but have you ever thought that your child(ren) may not actually want to be this nor that?

No matter how afraid or how sad you are, you got to be strong and show your (: side

YOU WILL NEVER WALK ALONE

When you walk through a storm,
Hold your head up high,
And don't be afraid of the dark.
At the end of a storm,
There's a golden sky,
And the sweet silver song of a lark.
Walk on through the wind, Walk on through the rain,
Though your dreams be tossed and blown..

Walk on, walk on, with hope in your heart,
And you'll never walk alone.......
You'll never walk alone.

Walk on, walk on, with hope in your heart,
And you'll never walk alone.......
You'll never walk alone.

NOW I WALK ALONE, WHO WILL BE THERE TO JOIN ME?

need you now

Need You Now Lyrics

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin for the phone cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Yes I'd rather hurt than feel nothin at all

It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now

I just need you now

Ooo, baby, I need you now

have you ever wished that someone will be there for you all the time, maybe not all the time, but when you need him/her, without a second word they will be here. i am lucky to have some of them but sometimes they are too caught up with their tight schedule. its non duty months for 6 weeks, can enjoy long holiday((: ord lo. LOL. sometimes having a girlfren is good as if all else fall you know that there will always be someone there for you,but that doesnt mean you neglect your friends, after all friends are always the people that will stay with you the longest least that girlfriend of yours becomes your wife. OH WELL. SO BORED!

NICE

TODAY WAS A FAIRYTALE, met up with reagen, chunfu, vanessa pin wen kailing fishy and wilson for alice in wonderland ( less pinwen) then headed for timbre, however due the long queue we made our way to chijmes where we went to hog breathe. ((: sometimes the simplest thing is the most wonderful thing. (:

130310, time pass really fast, 5 years have already passed. we have moved on for the better, and memories will be there to last.(:

TIRED

Tired of being what you want me to be, tired of doing stuff that are not in my job scope. tired of ppl pissing me off. but the irony of it is i like to get praise of doing extraordinary things in ordinary ways. Sometimes it just helps if there is another person who really understands you and love you. no need to many just one will do. This 5 years have been a rather quiet year with no emotional ties, i enjoy being single but on the other hand i want to find someone too. its not a must, but a bonus. oh well all these can wait, but now what i really want is to ORD! yes! ORD and nothing else. Although i noe what i am doing is something great ie protecting the nation sky, but sometimes when i am off duty, it makes me wonder why am i wasting my time here. although it is better than studying but sense of enjoyment sometimes you get when you are studying is far from anything you get when you are in the force. people dont praise you for your hardwork, although some do. while others just try to smoke their way through so as not to get themselves into hot soup. whats the point of doing last min work when you can do it daily and makes everything done easier. oh well. thank god i didnt sign on. or should i say, its not my type of job.

Anyway, lets not talk about work. talk about relationships. with parents? sometimes you just wish that they can understand you a little more, but sometimes you just feel that you can never be as close to them as you are, with your friends. but you know that they are the ones who will always be there for you, forgiving you, not neglecting you like what some of your friends may do. ironic isnt it. Sometimes you just want to be left alone, doing absolutely nothing at all, but then you somehow hope that someone wil msg you out of the blue and ask how are you, you get al excited and thrilled. then again you get annoyed if the person you receive the msg from is not who you wan it to be, you get even more annoy. THE most annoying thing is that if you are on off, the office still calls you to ask for stuff. although that may show your importance but it also shows that they are over reliant on you. oh well. suck thumb.

i dunno, i just like how someone will pat my head and call me *sha gua* silly head. it just make you feel love. feeling of being sayang?

THE TOUGHER THE PERSON APPEAR ON THE OUTSIDE, IT ONLY PROVE TO SHOW THAT HE IS TRYING TO COVER HIS WEAKER SIDE.

WOW

YET back again from a long week. practically did duty for like friday, sunday, tuesday, thursday and this coming sunday. oh well. suck thumb. but doing duty also good means you focus on just doing duty. FYI i dont do guard duty, I do duty of protecting the nation's sky. WA. IMBA rite? haha. people always think i do guard. nvm. I went out to eat dinner with my parents after so long. guai siols. ((: hope everything will stay as it is.