chapfallen

Sometimes I wonder why is it like that. why is it that some people are gd, some of them are bad. Sometimes you wonder, why is it that people must make you life miserable, some must make things hard for you. is this really a dog eat dog world? Actually just touched your heart, did i ever say no to all your request? did i ever not do things b4 hand? I have always done things in advanced, if not to the best of my ability, you dont appreciate nevermind, but at least have the courtesy to do something nice in return. what's the point of accumulating them and not able to "redeem" them. its not like i asked for a lot, it's just once a month. Dont ask so many reason, if i am happy, i would be more than willing to do what you asked me to if its within my limits. i hope things will turn out better, i am just hoping, after all its just 10more months

Blast

random msgs and surprises is what i like. ha. maybe i just need some care and concern.

No matter how strong one appear on the outside, he has a weak side.

i hope that she will be fine, after all she's the only one've left with. (:

feeling elmo's fren

Melancholic

Its funny sometimes how directors get their ideas to film a movie, could it be from a personal experience or from just pure imagination. Sometime, people just wan to shift their responsibility, its so easy to say I dont know anything, you just shifted your responsibility. It's amazing how people can me nonchalant about things. claiming recognition where there only did a small part of it while others have been working their ass off. The person lying there is your mother. she not even died yet, and there you'll are fighting as though as its not already bad enough. Cant you just spare a bit of your frking heart to care for a old lady. It does not matter how many times you visit her, it can be only once but that one time you go there because you truly care and not because you go for the sake of it. FOR GOODNESS SAKE, cant you adults wake up! SERIOUSLY, HEAVEN is always watching over you,they know what you are up to and who you really ar.

It's disheartening to see the sight. Tears just welled. JUST MAKE SURE SHE IS FINE AND THAT'S ALL I ASK.

WE THE KINGS

Do you remember the nights
We'd stay up just laughing
Smiling for hours
At anything
Remember the nights
We drove around crazy in love

When the lights go out
We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be a dream

Do you remember the nights
We made our way dreaming
Hoping of being
Someone big
We were so young then
We were too crazy
In love

When the lights go out
We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be a dream

Whoa whoa
Whoa whoa
Whoa whoa


When the lights go out
We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be


When the lights go out
We'll be safe and sound We'll take control of the world
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be a dream

We all have a dream, you always thought that once it is fulfil you will be happy, but then again you have another dream, you just keep dreaming more and more till you forget that you cant fulfil your dream by dreaming it. Some parents are classic examples, ie to say, if their dreams cannot be fulfil, they pass it on to their children and put it nicely as their dreams. but have you ever thought that your child(ren) may not actually want to be this nor that?

No matter how afraid or how sad you are, you got to be strong and show your (: side

YOU WILL NEVER WALK ALONE

When you walk through a storm,
Hold your head up high,
And don't be afraid of the dark.
At the end of a storm,
There's a golden sky,
And the sweet silver song of a lark.
Walk on through the wind, Walk on through the rain,
Though your dreams be tossed and blown..

Walk on, walk on, with hope in your heart,
And you'll never walk alone.......
You'll never walk alone.

Walk on, walk on, with hope in your heart,
And you'll never walk alone.......
You'll never walk alone.

NOW I WALK ALONE, WHO WILL BE THERE TO JOIN ME?

need you now

Need You Now Lyrics

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin for the phone cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Yes I'd rather hurt than feel nothin at all

It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now

I just need you now

Ooo, baby, I need you now

have you ever wished that someone will be there for you all the time, maybe not all the time, but when you need him/her, without a second word they will be here. i am lucky to have some of them but sometimes they are too caught up with their tight schedule. its non duty months for 6 weeks, can enjoy long holiday((: ord lo. LOL. sometimes having a girlfren is good as if all else fall you know that there will always be someone there for you,but that doesnt mean you neglect your friends, after all friends are always the people that will stay with you the longest least that girlfriend of yours becomes your wife. OH WELL. SO BORED!

NICE

TODAY WAS A FAIRYTALE, met up with reagen, chunfu, vanessa pin wen kailing fishy and wilson for alice in wonderland ( less pinwen) then headed for timbre, however due the long queue we made our way to chijmes where we went to hog breathe. ((: sometimes the simplest thing is the most wonderful thing. (:

130310, time pass really fast, 5 years have already passed. we have moved on for the better, and memories will be there to last.(:

TIRED

Tired of being what you want me to be, tired of doing stuff that are not in my job scope. tired of ppl pissing me off. but the irony of it is i like to get praise of doing extraordinary things in ordinary ways. Sometimes it just helps if there is another person who really understands you and love you. no need to many just one will do. This 5 years have been a rather quiet year with no emotional ties, i enjoy being single but on the other hand i want to find someone too. its not a must, but a bonus. oh well all these can wait, but now what i really want is to ORD! yes! ORD and nothing else. Although i noe what i am doing is something great ie protecting the nation sky, but sometimes when i am off duty, it makes me wonder why am i wasting my time here. although it is better than studying but sense of enjoyment sometimes you get when you are studying is far from anything you get when you are in the force. people dont praise you for your hardwork, although some do. while others just try to smoke their way through so as not to get themselves into hot soup. whats the point of doing last min work when you can do it daily and makes everything done easier. oh well. thank god i didnt sign on. or should i say, its not my type of job.

Anyway, lets not talk about work. talk about relationships. with parents? sometimes you just wish that they can understand you a little more, but sometimes you just feel that you can never be as close to them as you are, with your friends. but you know that they are the ones who will always be there for you, forgiving you, not neglecting you like what some of your friends may do. ironic isnt it. Sometimes you just want to be left alone, doing absolutely nothing at all, but then you somehow hope that someone wil msg you out of the blue and ask how are you, you get al excited and thrilled. then again you get annoyed if the person you receive the msg from is not who you wan it to be, you get even more annoy. THE most annoying thing is that if you are on off, the office still calls you to ask for stuff. although that may show your importance but it also shows that they are over reliant on you. oh well. suck thumb.

i dunno, i just like how someone will pat my head and call me *sha gua* silly head. it just make you feel love. feeling of being sayang?

THE TOUGHER THE PERSON APPEAR ON THE OUTSIDE, IT ONLY PROVE TO SHOW THAT HE IS TRYING TO COVER HIS WEAKER SIDE.

WOW

YET back again from a long week. practically did duty for like friday, sunday, tuesday, thursday and this coming sunday. oh well. suck thumb. but doing duty also good means you focus on just doing duty. FYI i dont do guard duty, I do duty of protecting the nation's sky. WA. IMBA rite? haha. people always think i do guard. nvm. I went out to eat dinner with my parents after so long. guai siols. ((: hope everything will stay as it is.

PS

Sometimes you just hope that the thought in your mind would be read by ppl even without you telling them, its amazing how some ppl does it. you just cant seem to figure out how they do it. oh well. it is the silence that is deafening. Anyway, back home to catch a breather before another stretch of duty surface. start to feel numb about duty as you do it more often.

Last week was fun, going to melson house and dinner with bmt peeps. its amazing how ppl have not meet for months and when they are together, there is alwasy things to say, talk and laugh about. all those foolish, silly things that ppl did. LOL

Anyway i dont like the feeling of being PS. like who likes it anyway, but it is saddening when you promise and you break it. i am very happy-go- lucky actually. I will do if you asked nicely just dont pissed me off or accuse me of something i didnt do. This year fan tai shui, and mommy told me that i shall control my temper and not vent it out as i like if not it wont be a very nice year for me ahead, esp to superior. LOL. so qiao. how can i not believe? anwyay its march already for 2010, so fast you may thing, soon enough i am a one year solider waiting for ORD. HAHA. cant wait for it man. HOORRAY POPING to zoe house later. TA!

FRENS

Friends are very special people. There are a lot of people out there saying that they are BFF, BFFF! but do they really mean what they say? Hmm. True friends are those no matter what time, how long you have never meet. one call it all that it takes for them to help. A friend in need is a friend in deed. Sometimes you just wonder how someone can be so cruel yet not feeling guilty themselves. could it be because someone did similar things to them and they decide not to be that good samaritian anymore. or do they feel great to see people suffering? But i do believe no matter how bad a person is, there still present a compassionate heart in him. agree? suddenly dont feel like blogging anymore. TATA

LOLx

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ZOE! had celebration at zoe house yesterday. TOTAL FUNNIEST. LOL. due to my very special BFF coming out with out of the world topic. LOL. HIGHNESS. POP the question on when you think our friendship will last. HA. although its random, but will the 7 of us be separated? with melson going to leave for states to study. and the girls graduating? finding their half apple. could it still be the same? or at least still keep in touch? same goes to niggers. Friendship is like relationship it takes all the parties to put in their part and nt just some. well i already have one that is on the verge. lets not talk about emo stuff. and I quite like what zw said yesterday nt because its nice to hear(no doubt) but what he say really set me thinking and i think its really true. HE said that i am one who shines whenever there's a group around me. shines nt as in taking the limelight but in a good way like more happy. and i start to eel all emo when i am alone. LOLx really. that how i feel also. i have build a relationship with people around me. i like having companies although sometime i like to be left alone. but more often than not i usually prefer to be with people. one of the most happiest times is playing floorball. Many memories left in there, all the training and stuff. actually apart from making into the national squad is one of my dreams i have another which i think it can be fulfilled easily is people i love come down and support me in my match, be it family, loved ones, friends( only jonathan, kailing and reagen naughty) once. i hope there would be really someone( chunfu and gang, zq and gang, zoe, sy and van and gang and all my close frens) just watch me play. although you all may nt understand the whole game play but its the presence that matters, give me the courage and support. probably then i will further excel. LOL. but anyway i dont even know if i am going to continue to play in the uni. let see how things goes. think thats abt all. SEE YA. OH! OH! OH! OH!

bumpy ride

LIFE has recently became a roller coaster ride for me, it started low, slow, but sunddenly you feel like you are on cloud nine where everything around you was perfect, you feel happy and all, but the next moment when it starts to descend. you start to feel queasy, feel afraid, the highness was soon over and even worst you found that you are having motion sickness, one moment of highness, happiness resulted in the day ending like crap, you feel down, upset, frustrated when people around you start giving that nonchalant attitude where they don't care about their stuff. they just want to cruise their way through when you someone who is responsible enough starts to gain recognition and people entrust things to you and you find yourself having so much to do that it never seems to finish, yet you may be happy that people trust you and task things to you, on the other hand you see others doing nothing but just stay around looking handsome, you just cant help it but to grumble why is it that they can be slacking their ass off and you are practically doing everything. why must you care so much, lets just get everyone frk. but you know you cant and can do nothing but to suck thumb as you do not want to spoil this relationship as you still need to face them almost the whole entire life. they are not bad i must say but they should be show more initiative and help out. when you dont have anything to do, it doesnt mean that other people have nothing to do, help them, so things can be done faster, quicker and everyone can be happier. why be the best when the best have to do everything, why be the lousiest when you know you can be the best?

FUN

THANKS BFFs for today, it really caught me off guard. i really did nt suspect anything, it was a total surprise for me ((; yea! THANKS. i really appreciate a lot. ZOE' mom fried rice, Shi yun granny curry, sandwiches from zoe, minmin and sy. SPIDERMAN CAKE FROM Van! ((: NT FORGETING ZW ANDRE AND MELSON IN THE CONSPIRACY, and the WOW WET TIME! lol ((: xie xie

I PRACTICALLY SPEND MY BD AT HOME. ): I GUESSED EVERYONE IS BUSY AND I HAVE TO GO FOR WEDDING DINNER. SUCKS! HAIZ. HAVE YOU EVER WANDER IF YOU PUT FREN AS IMPT PPL> DO THEY DO THE SAME? YOU ARE ALWAYS THERE FOR THEM, BUT SOMETIMES THEY JUST CANT BE THERE FOR YOU. SO LIVE YOUR OWN LIFE!

BIRTHDAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF? HAHA. turning twenty this year. finally reach the 20 le. old le. start to be an adult? LOL boon or bane? i dunno. nth to blog now.

LOVE

Back from a much dreaded week. NTH much to talk abt. Life is getting boring. what would it be like next week, would it be the same. lets hope i wont be disappointed.

NEW YEAR

IT"S THE START OF THE NEW YEAR! ((:

5 years now have passed, but it just seem to like happened yesterday. I am glad you still kept some of the stuff. (:

IT TAKES TWO HANDS TO CLAP

IT has been how many donkey months (even years) since I last blog. I do not know why i feel like blogging today. Time flies and its gonna be a new year ahead, throughout this year, nothing much have happened to me i guess cause i am in the army for almost 24/5. But throughout this past months, you can see that people do change, although they may say that they didn't but it's often the people around them who can sense or feel their difference. Last night i was bombarded with something, something that really sets me thinking,the channel U show 'THE PROMISE'. A short film abt a girl who is intellectually disabled and she fall in love with this normal guy (whom the society deemed as normal) in the very place they are working. It's very hard to explain, it there is any possible means to watch it, go watch it. It may look like a typical love story but have anyone thought about the parents of the girl feel? You may think that I am stupid, who in the right mind would think of such think, This is completely normal as people do not think of such stuff until they are trapped in them. Ask yourself, would you care so much abt your diet if the doctor did not tell you that you will die if you dont. would you exercise if you found out that the shirt you bought last month could no longer fit you and that you will die of illness? would you appreciate what someone has done for you all this while but one day they are gone or one day you are the one actually doing it. Although they might have exception but all that stated normally reflect itself in desperate times. It applies to sometimes too. Bringing back the point about the parents and the girl, the analogy that i am trying to draw from here is that, sometimes you cannot think only from your pov, you need to spare a thought of others too, try putting yourself in others shoe. What if your children was like that, who you scold them morons? It's always in times of desperate that people start to panic, start to think, start to be more understanding and compassionate.

It is the same for relationships be it family, girl-boy, gd girl-gd boy. It takes two hands to clap, it cannot work one way. Dont always think people are not putting in the effort, ask yourself, how much effort have you put in? And also, you may have put in YOUR 100% of course it would be gd that others have also put in their 100%, BUT look, others may think that they have already put in their 100%, but to you it is nt the 100% that you assume, you aspect, you demand it to be. SEE. it boils down to you. yea you. you are the one who deem the 100%, if you lower your standards, expect less and if it goes more than it, would not you be happier? Of course, there's always the presence of exceptions. when that occurs, it is time to reflect.

When will one start treasuring their things, it will be went those things/ people are gone be it forever or just for a little while. Make it a habit to say thanks, or at least acknowledge what others have done for you. sometimes i wonder, why be the gd ppl, it is always the gd ppl that suffers, in movies it is always the bad people that last throughout the movie, the gd ppl dies in betw and only one which is the main lead of the gd ppl stay till the end. so why be gd, but think of it if you become bad, then you reciprocate, arent you being that bad person that you hate? Oh well, contradiction again. IRONY. PARADOXICAL.

I am not trying to say big words here, i am just trying to state my opinions, my stand, my side of the story. i am not very gd at writing, but i am rather vocal.
Sometimes i wonder, whenever people ask me for help or whatsoever, my first ans will always be an yes, sometimes no questions asked, although they might be exceptions.
But when it is the other way round, there are only a few i know (hope) i can reply on. Actually i am quite shy in nature, although it may be otherwise when you know me well enough. haha. Actually i dunno why i compose this today, some random thoughts?

It is through misunderstanding that there is common understanding.

Hatred

There are good and bad news, The good news is the days are limited, and it's almost ending. The bad news is i have to tolerate for another two weeks or so. what am i going to do. will i be able to pull through. this is so not me. i dun wan to wear a mask. i cant help but to feel down at times. HAI. GOD tell me what to do. Make me a way when there seems to be no way!

LAST DAY

Tmr is the day, the day of my sentence, the day where all boy grow into man, the day where pink i/c is gone, the day where freedom was no longer meant to be, the day where you only gets home during weekends, the day where ppl starts to realise i am no longer that available, the day where you dial the hotline you may not get an instant reply or get weird calls or sms ie. hey where you. LOL. the day where liverpool will start their winning streak. LOL. LAME. THis is jack. feeling rather excited as this is the first time that i go camp for 1yrs and 10mths. everyweek seems to be a new camp i feel and i hope that there is always something to look forward to. i hope to make new good frens there although i noe i will be exposed to diff kinds of ppl. lets just hope i will meet the better ones. ((: Till then, take care to all my fellow frens, BFFs, love ones, eye candies (LOL) , and whoever you think i will mention you but i didnt. yea. you the one reading it now. RMB TO TAKE CARE. MAYBE you all will start tresuring and missing me when i am not around. ((: TATAs

JACK (-___-)

LOst

Long since i last blog.THe days are drawing closer, 10 more days before enlistment. hmm. there arent anything that i haven do, except some meetups with my friends, and NO.2 if you happen to see this! PLS REPLY YOU ASS!! haha. there still some presents i haven pass. i haven buy my phone neither have i bought my mp3. hmm shall get it done within the next 10 days. PMS this few days. dunno why either.shall blog again when there are more to blog. 10 days more before my hair will be gone. gone with the days when my eye were made red with my hair. hahal ((:

new realisation

YEA! i am here to blog once again. the reason of me not bllooging that often is because i see no need to as my life is as usual mundane. s: my life has been revolving around refering and doing camps. the rest of the days i just slack. haha. as the results days drew nearer, the anxiety and fear grew larger, i am afraid that i may not make it. i really dunno. what if i cant make it, what shall i do? omg! haiz. i decided that i will not think of it untill the day is here. anyway i found something weird abt human nature. and that is do not mess around with ppl whom you do not really know well as you never know the things you said or do might pissed them off.i may have done is sub-consciously, i dunno but whats done cannot be undone rite? i hope that in future i can be more cautious about my human- human relationship or what you call it. haha. and i found out that my greatest fear is acutally disappointment.

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Disappointment   You are a fun-loving, energetic, and cheerful person. You love adrenaline rushes, and going out at night. You constantly have to be having a great time to feel completely happy. Your biggest fear is not having anything to do, or having a huge disappointment/let down in your life. You hate being sad, and if something in your life suddenly went wrong it would be extremely hard for you to deal with. Just remember that everyone has to deal with hard times. Stay strong, and pretty soon your fun, party life will get right back the way it used to be.
Looked down on
Being Alone
Commitment
Where Your life is Going
Losing Someone
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Friends out there, do you agree with this? haha. try it. *gotten it from Zhi lun's blog! ((:

I dunno what to blog, cause i got nothing to blog. this month what i have been doing is camps and referee for floorball matches. i think that will be able to feed me? idk. haha. ((: i dun mind more jobs with more money. ((: this month was not really fantastic. i hope next month will be better! ((: Happy 牛Year

Happy Belated birthday to myself.

Aunt 2

Good Bye Aunt, May you rest in peace. My birthday wish this year will definitely include you. Thanks for all that you have given. You shall be rewarded. ((:

Aunty

Someone who ones love me. when i was small. she always buy stuff for me. I remeber once i got this pokemon shirt that my mom bought, but on the way home, i lost it. I cried and my mom scolded me. She walk all the way back to buy a new one for me. She never fails to buy a lot of food for me to eat. Her dishes are delicious and her yam cake is imba. but unfortunately, few years back she fell and suffer from a stroke. Then on she never recovered after that. I noe some day she will have to leave to answer god call. and she finally did. ): My biggest aunt. I hope your afterlife will be pleasant.

Spiderman 4

YEAH!!!! NO.4 is coming soon!! WOOO...

WHAT IF DESTINY WAS NEVER MEANT TO BE?

2009

Its the beginning of a new year. i guessed this year will be rather different. its the year that i will be in the army. its a year that i wont be in singapore on my birhtday. its a year where i dont have to study. its a year i hoped that is filled with surprises and hopes. i wished that this year everything will be going well for me. i also hope that my friends will be happy (: OK. till then.

New year

The year is coming to an end in two days time, Ez link going to expire. LMAO. This year seems to pass very fast yet very slow. Very slow during the first 11mths when taking the As. After As. the time seem to pass very fast. I think i really enjoy myself till now. Esp KOREA TRIP. Though i am lazy to blog, but times during there was really really really good. all the snowboarding. Seoul. midnight room partying. Cooking. Hell lots of fun. all the joke as well. 60cents ^^. Hmm. Probably working for as a camp instructor. but still looking for other jobs. so peeps if you got job. nothing to do with MLM intro me ar!! haha. ((: I will not be in singapore for my bd for 2009. will be celebrating it with the trees. HAHA. first time celebrating bd in camp. hope it will be a nice one. there is always a first time for everything. I shall end here. i dunno what to blog anymore. ((; Take care people. And treasure the people around you (:

Korea

Finally i decide to update. actually there not much to update. i am lazy to blog about korea. you can look up the photos on my facebook http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/profile.php?id=538893114&ref=name
((: Overall korea was really fun. esp the little little things that happened. the supper at night in hotel rooms. the **** face. the pork rib, shuoju, and suana!! heaven!!! ((: 60cents! ^^

sick

F*** i hate to fall sick. and stomach flu is not cool! Cramping the whole night is really painful and torturing!... but anyway i am alive so yah. went for training camp in KOTA afterall cause i didnt want to pang seh andi really wanted to go ((: yea. i will regret if i didnt go and thank god there was gary who saved me! yea.
shall blog more when i am back from korea. tata people. (: Dun miss me (:

ENDED

TWO interminable years have finally ended, all those anxieties, stress, anger, tears, sweat... ... are all over. YES! finally i can be old self, as optimistic as ever. JC life is really one of the most tortouous route i ever taken in my entire 12 years of education. Never in my life have i felt so depressed and stress up. But lookng back at it now, i felt so relieved and so happy that i managed to pull it through, It wouldnt be possible if without my friends, who never fail to cheer me up whenever i was down, thank god for you guys. (: i dunno what i will be doing for the rest of my life, but at least for now, i think i should give myself a deserving break for all those happiness i have lost during JC life. i blog more often. Till then ((: IT's PARTY TIME! (:

Alevels

As the days draw near, everyone start to panic. Everyone is bound to feel stress. Even the most cheerful, most stress free person gets affected. The fact that i am typing this shows that i am very stressed out. I dunno why. i scared to fall like how i did during the O levels. I dun wan to fall yet again. Its really a painful journey. Trust me.. those who went through. those who is/are/was/were/will be going though should concur with me. I really dunno. I am not behaving like jack. I get stress out easily. irritated easily. feel lonely easily. ARH I DUNNO.. hahha

TIme heals

Time really heals, things are getting better now, lest we are on talking terms. I dun haope for miracles, perhaps just let things stay the way it is now? haha.. All the best!

Happy birthday

DID you see the cover page of the newspaper today? We are on it. Special Coverage on aNdrE's birthday!! ((: Ranging from migration to you know what.. HHAHA ((:

motivation

WHERE ARE YOU MOTIVATION?

....

IF.

in to me i see

What do you see?

Jack

Hmmm.. had graduation service yesterday. it didnt felt like one though. i think sec4 one is much better? maybe its because of the people around? 4yrs compared to 2? i dunno. There is something missing from yesterday service but i dunno how to expressed it. But never mind about that, A level is what the matter most. 20 more days to go. i dunno if i am prepared but i think i shall do my best. A friend of mine wrote me something and i guess it will stay in my mind for quite a while.


You just have to do your best, God will do the rest ((:

失落非主流

周杰倫 Jay - 失落非主流 Lyrics 歌詞

詞: 方文山 曲: 周杰倫

你的繪畫凌亂著
在這個時刻
我像氣氛純白的白鴿
甜蜜散落了
繼續莫名的拉扯
我還愛你呢
而你斷斷續續唱著歌
假裝沒事了
時間過了 走了
愛情面臨選擇
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
一開始都不快樂
你用卡片紙寫著
有些愛隻給到這 真的痛了
怎麼了 你累了 說好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不說了 愛淡了 夢遠了
開心與不開心依稀數著你在不舍
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻
我都還記得
你不懂了 說好的 幸福呢
我錯了 淚干了 放手了 后悔了
隻是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著
要怎麼停呢
曲周杰倫歌詞提供再興
你的繪畫凌亂著
在這個時刻
我像氣氛純白的白鴿
甜蜜散落了
繼續莫名的拉扯
我還愛你呢
而你斷斷續續唱著歌
假裝沒事了
時間過了 走了
愛情面臨選擇
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
一開始都不快樂
你用卡片紙寫著
有些愛隻給到這 真的痛了
怎麼了 你累了 說好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不說了 愛淡了 夢遠了
開心與不開心依稀數著你在不舍
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻
我都還記得
你不懂了 說好的 幸福呢
我錯了 淚干了 放手了 后悔了
隻是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著
要怎麼停呢
怎麼了 你累了
說好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不說了
愛淡了 夢遠了
我都還記得
你不懂了 說好的 幸福呢
我錯了 淚干了 放手了 后悔了
隻是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著
要怎麼停呢
為什麼這時候忍心離我而去

A levels

As time draw closer, the stress gets bigger. The stress of wanting to perform, the stress of not going to do well, the stress of not being able to do prelim papers. the stress of everything just seems to amass when time flies.

Even the ever so optimistic, sanguine, happy-go-lucky, jack is feeling it. Never in his entire 18 years of living, has he felt so stressed up. Thank God for the friends he have around, in school, outside school. i really do not know how to continue any longer. I just hoped it pass quickly. and i mean real quick! Cant wait for 18th. 9.16am! when the CPE says; Alright Pencils down! And its going to rock! More Thrilling then the O level feeling!

Jack is _ _ _ _ _ _. He wants....

Title

nthing much to blog about recently, i have yet to receive my econs, afterwhichi would blog all my results. anyway, i got my colours award today.. cool! ((: till then...

Human nature

Its amazing how humans care about only themselves and not about others.
You would not be here if not for your father and your mother.
but yet when they grow old, they get thrown around like some kind of toy.
everyone procrastinate that "someone" will take care of them. In the end, they are nowhere to be found.
When their parents ascend, the rich will fight all over for inheritance, making grand funerals to showcase their social "class". How willing and how much they actually "care" about their parents. Come to think of it, why dun treat them good and take care of them when they are around. Why WAIT till they are no longer in this world, then start swearing and cursing, cry like there is no tml. WHY? Why ill-treat them, shift responsibility to take care of them.

Put yourself into their shoes, imagine when you were born, your parents shift their responsibility to take care of you. throw you around, DO you like the feeling? we are all humans, we need care, concern and love. How much can an elderly cost you? They actually demand very little, so long you care and love them. they are happy enough already. so people out there, stop shifting your responsibility, have the courage to take up this role, do not throw them around like how you throw your tissue papers. Act now before its too late. Filial piety is not for show, but it shall be uphold!

Wedding

Prelim 2 has ended, the result will tell everything, will update when i get back any of them.

Hm..decided to take the whole week off. Have been going on a wedding spree, went for two wedding back to back..whoooo..photos soon ((:

Kinda feeling empty, dunno where my direction is and heading towards.i need someone? something?

KOP

No doubt, We are the KOP! Kudos to Ryan Babel

Melanchoic

Today physics paper 2 was GG.. LOL.. hai..dun have time to finish..oh well.. cause i have to do really well for paper 1 (:

M_ _ _ _ C _ _ _ C- mood of the day

Moodlless

3 down, 6 up LOL..((: M_ _ _ _ _ _ _ (oo) you guessed it right once again, first time somemore.. Zhen cong ming.

Hm papers are ok so far but i dunno how i would flair, let the result do the talking. But rather afraid though. Studying has become such a chore. But the good thing it is gonna end soon..Phew...

I need some _ _ _ _.

Start

TML is the start of Prelim 2, actually it started with GP last last wed, but it was a goner, tml will mark the start. and will last till the 18th, i am nervous and a bit stress. but its all good isnt it? i dunno.i just gonna give my best? haha..phew. a lvl.. pls pass quickly.. i am dying.. (oo)...

Rah

......

Crazy

I think i am going C_ _ _ _ . and (oo) guess it in one go..how cool is it ((((: You made my day!! wooo.... Teleppii...

When i cannot get the sums i get frustrated, when i careless i get frustrated, when i waste my time away, i get frustrated. ARH!!!!!!! IN your face..

RAHHHHHHHHH!!

Its so draining, its draining away my energy, i never felt so empty, felt so tired felt so moody in my life. I guessed i am stressed up. which is rather unusual. cause i am always so happy go lucky...Behind every smile lies a broken heart? you,me, we know what it meant.

Quickly, Quickly pass... i so dread this. but anwyay i wun back down! never..


i am jack ( Just a cheerful kid)

VExed

Vexed

Heroes

Been slacking since wednesday after gp which is not a gd sign. Nvm. Monday will mark the start(: Finally i seem to be able to see the end of this route. This route which started out 11 years back is finally going to end for the first time before i move on to another level.

Education is just like a game, an rpg one. One in which you will have to gain knowledge to move on to the next level. Finally i am going to complete this game. How exciting! hahah.. But it just came to my realisation that there is one boss in which i cannot face alone. No matter how many times i try, i'll just die even before reaching the boss. Now i noe how to complete this game. I need to work with others, We need to work as a team to defeat the boss and complete the game. So who is willing to join me to finish this game, with style?

Backstab

Doctor take hippocratic oath.
Someone take hypocratic oath. LMAO

I wander sometimes. who is your best friend and whose not. Does one who always out best fren in their mouth your best fren? or those who knows who exactly you are then is your best fren? Shouldnt your fren accept you for who you are and not who you must be? Wouldnt they be the one who stand up for you, tell you to change for the better. Someone once told me " Your Truest friend is your frankiest friend." Whats your call people? I hate it when people exploit my kindness!

TIred

Hmm just played basketball in school today! LOL.. long time since i last played basketball.. LOL its so much about basketball these days, olympics and 篮球火. LOL..

Hmm.. I screwed up my Gp yesterday. i guess its the lack of preparation. ): sign. Last see what the results show. anyway. Shall work hard for the rest of the papers!! ((:

Till then....

Friends

Someone wrote this on a post-it when i was in sec 2. till date i haven found out who was it from.

If you want to be happy for a day, Get a date.
If you want to be happy for a week, Get a lover.
If you want to be happy for a month, Get married.
If you want to be happy forever, Get a friend, like me Xp.

Am i that worth?

Arrogance

Time flies and in a blink of both eyes, there is just 3 more mths before the first chapter of education comes to an end. It seems like everything happened so quickly. From the start of pre-sch where it was all nursery ryhmes and songs. Test were all on simple arithmatics and languages.Not long later, we moved on to primary school, where things got a little more challenging. Algebra was brought into the picture, so were science and social studies. When we start to manange them fairly well, we were brought yet to another unfamiliar ground, the secondary school. New friends, new form of education system, this was where we start to know more about the things happening around us better. Guys and Girls whom seem to be hating each other in primary school, saying things like " why you take my things", "I dont friend you already", suddenly found each other rather attractive. Although some chose to be mediocre and remain non-chanlant to the things happening around them, the majority was on their way to expand their circle of friends and widened their knowledge.

Secondary school was one stage of the best stages of my life, the stress level though high, but we were able to enjoy ourselves. making the best out of everything we can. I was previously in a group where people in there seems to be so gel to together. Even if we don't meet for days,weeks or even months(which is like now), the moment we meet up, the moment our eyes were in contact with each other, the feeling was as though we just met the day before. We dont feel separated with one another, we never fail to find topics to talk about. back then the group was with some much dominance. Through the group, each and every one developed our forte. Something which was inherent and innate in us, just that we didnt realise it. But as time goes by and when management changes, things wont the same like before. The passion, the drive no longer flow in our blood. How ironic is it that we are so gel yet we are falling apart due to a change in manangement. I think i forgot to mention, its is just some that was gel, some got into their own cliques and was never seen then, some come and go, while others tried their best to salvage what they can. But it was to no avail when there is only a handful who believe it can happen. Other just choose to take the easy way out.

Enough is said, i guess its time we move on. Moving on to the the last lap of proper education, different people haven chosen different routes. Some knew what they want to be and went on to the poly, while others who are not sure chose the jc. No matter what your choice is. ultimately everyone idea is to make it into the univerisity. Friends in Jc are very special, as they are the ones you get to see most of the time. Unlike in secondary, Jc pace is rather breakneck, it is just like remanisscent of the sec 3 sec 4 life. but to be exact, it is actually much more challenging and competitive. You dont know what you dont know as there are some much to learn in such a short time. I am very lucky to be in a class i am now. as we have very caring, patient and knowledgable teacher. we too have a lot of jovial yet serious classmate. But is that really the case? or are we just putting on a mask everyday we go to sch? I have changed and i have realised it. Its not for the better, but for the worst. i guess its all the pressure and stress that cause me to undergo such metamorphasis. I think its high time i do a reflection about myself. Agree? Ultimately, the raison d'etre why we are here is that we want to go to the uni.why not help everyone ( or at least) as much as you can to get everyone there, instead of being some arrogant B****** who dont give a damn about others?

After "pening" this thought made think through a lot of stuff, all those that i hae neglected due to studies. What is the point of getting all As for A level where in fact you fail in every other aspect of your life.

What is the main difference between a winner and a loser? The difference is the winner sees only himself, but the loser sees the rest. Got the point?

I like this phrase, quoted from someone "Others say we are crazy, but we say we are so lucky"

Goals

THe tragedy in life is not being not able to achieve your goals, but is when you do not have any goals to achieve.
-Natalie du Toit

I am moodless to study today. i dunno why. Sometimes its really tiring. The thought of it just turn me off. Doing A level is a torture. Real torture

olympics

Hmm, long time since i last blogged. I do not think there is a lot to blog about cause life for me have been mandane. Just school and home. Same old routine day in and day out. Prelims is coming soon and i think i will be busy preparing for it. I realyl wan to do well for A level. ( who woundn't want to) Haha.. alright. i've got to go (: And Phelps is now 7 for 8. one more to go..what a great athelete he is ((:

quotes

There are two ways of meeting difficulties. You alter the difficulties or you alter yourself to meet them.
-- Phyllis Bottome


Hmm, i have decided to post one quote a day, to inspire others, to inspire myself. so when people come to my blog, they leave with somthing to ponder about.

Being there

Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it.
-- Groucho Marx


Why choose to be sad when you can be happy?
-- Jack

LOL((:

Floorball

Wooo..This is definitely heartwarming ((: yea..Smile cause is happens


http://redsports.sg/2008/07/24/redsports-floorball-awards/

200th

Well, this is the 200th post! wooo..time to update.. My last nationals' end with a "bang" a shock really...hmm i dunno what to say but i think i just am not a good leader. My gp teacher told me today, to be a leader you need to show the way, i guess i failed on that part. My studies are in a mess now acutually, not so imba already.. Failed my prelim 1..arh!! darn!! i hate it when everything don't go the way it should, or at least the way i want it to be. I don't know really! A few more months left, guess i have to find the real me.. haha... beware! cause jack is here!

LAst

"Not everyone will win all the time. There must be always a loser, but the loser will win sometimes. Even best runner in the world lose to someone. Everyone is training hard as well. You did not win this race, you will train harder as well, and win them the next time round. Remember, losing a race is not end of the world. A real athlete will try win his opponent instead of giving up when he loses a race."


"Fear can hold you back from so many wonderful things in life, so I make myself go for things I'm afraid of. Worry afterwards"
-Leann Rimes.

Oh... just what i need for the last day! DIRECTLY QUOTED from Naughty's Blog!! hehe...Adios

Journeys

Lying beside you
Here in the dark
Feeling your heart with mine
Softly you whisper
You're so sincere
How could our love be so blind
We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are
By my side

So now I come to you
With open arms
Nothing to hide
Believe what I say
So here I am
With open arms
Hoping you'll see
What your love means to me
Open arms

Living without you
Living alone
This empty house seems so cold
Wanting to hold you
Wanting you near
How much I wanted you home

But now that you've come back
Turned night into day
I need you to stay

So now I come to you
With open arms
Nothing to hide
Believe what I say
So here I am
With open arms
Hoping you'll see
What your love means to me
Open arms


Open Arms- Journey

Journey, there are a lot in life, at different point of time and your life, you walk through diff part of the journey of your life, with diff ppl, sometimes even it might be the same people that are walking it through with you. Think about it, The people who walk with you, do they still walk with you? or did you walk out of theirs, or they walk out of yours.

These 18 yrs of my life, i have been walking this journey with many ppl and i am glad that i have them as i would not be who i am today, if not for them.

We lost our match today, a match which we have confidence in winning, yet we blew it up. But i am not going to give up just yet, like i said, everything is not decided to the last whistle. Last game, Last time on that court, Last time being with the team, last nationals' last hope, last win..last jack....

form

Where are you my dear form...i need you back badly..i wan you form!!!

Sad

DEVASTED...



I have never in my life be this sad before. We are so near yet so far..i hate it when i cannot do anything... why am i so lousy. why cant i perform. why? why? Pressure? Stress? I dunno..sorry team.. i let you down again and again..i pass on the captaincy, just so i wan to prove my worth.

Match

LOUSY, SUX. any negative words seems to suit me. I am totally ashamed with my lackluster performance today.

I will work hard and live up my name as the captain. I wun disappoint the team and myself again!Every Defeat makes my Stronger!

Competion

EXAMS results blah...i will talk abt it when i get bacl everything. but it kind of sux though..anyway thats not my main concern as for now. my concern is about a div. Personally i dun have any fear because i noe the team can do it. I think the main problem lie in me, myself and i. i dunno why i dun not have the fire in myself when i go into competition. I know i have what it takes but i always feel i am the latter compared to others. I dun have the confidence in myself. ): i am trying my best to fight against that, and i hope then in time to come, which is tuesday, i will be in my top form to face off against MJC. Nothing is impossible. I need the support, the confidence, the calmness. sometimes i come to think of it.. i know i will regret if i dun play my best, i noe i can control my feelings but i just cant help it to feel that way. Somebody save me!

Exam

Exams are driving me nuts. sometimes i really wanna give up eerything and do the things i wan, have fun.. but come to think of it.. if i am without a sch to go, the fun i get its only short term, what about long term? LOL sounds so econS? papers i think will be average? I screwed maths!! ar... damn. i am so sad about it man.. its easy i think, but its paradoxical that i cant do it? Physis was..ar dun wannna talk, the two papers i thnk ok were econs and chem.. hmm.. lets hope i at least pass all my sub? A div is coming and i am so looking forward for it!! RAH!!.. anyway, singapore schools boys got overall champions for the youth league, hmm..sometimes i wonder are we really the singapore schools boys? HAHAH..

Two more paper to o..chem and physics paper 3.. i need a break.. i have been slacking this two days,and oh ya.. PAPA's back from operation. still needs to go back and check.. i hope everything will be fine!! ((:

8/7/08- MJC v IJC 2.30pm (Republic Poly Sports Complex)
10/7/08- YJC v IJC 12pm (Republic Poly Sports Compler)
14/7/08- IJC v TJC 12pm (Tampines Sports Hall)
16/7/08- ACJC v IJC 12pm (Tampines Sports Hall)

My last nationals, lets make it a good one!

Birthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOYCEEEE!! Hmm.. celebrated for her with HPT gang on the 20th, ((: Hope she enjoys it.. i found out one thing, HPT people are still HPT people afterall.. Its special how we get together, this special group set up by 6 of them had bought diff generations but tgt sharing a comman character trait together. I have never regretted being part of it.. and it is because of this, i become who i am today.

Reached home at 1 that night, woke up at 6 ( damn freaking early) i almost didnt wan to wake up. Bused to meet edward and together we bused down to CCAB for our youth league match. We won both matches, 11-2 and 7-3. Woo two more matches leff and its one next week sat

After the match, i bused down with gerrald to douby gourt for lunch then xin kai and gang came over to find me to eat.. haha..they are always so funny, * if i was to be in the team.... blah blah.. ( *ji lei yi xia, liang xia, san bai xia) haha.. then we bused down again to Valhal for our friendly with bukit merah. I swear we played damn well. I was amazed by how we could play. although we lost, but we lost by a slight margin of 8-6. i think they understood how to play as a team. and we shall rock the a div peeps.

Team selection was done yesterday, my apologies to those not being chosen for the team, i did what i can.* tears were shed, trying to get everyone in. I am sorry.
Those who are in the team, well done, like i said, everyone is chosen for a reason, you are there to fulfil that specific role. Lets make this *tmy last nationals* the most memorable one for me and you.


"The most important thing is not to win, but to take part; Just as the most important thing in life is not the triumph, but the attempt. The essential thing is not to have conquered, but to have fought well." The Olympic Creed, 1894

ARE YOU READY TEAM INNOVA?

MEntor

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

Quiz

A) people who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.
B) tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. these people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. continue this game by sending it to other people.



#1 if your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
---> Just leave? When she betrayed you means she doesnt love you anymore rite?
cause if she does then she wouldnt have betrayed you!

#2 if you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
---> LOL..how i know.. Dream are not reality? sometime its just good to dream.. Should i name one then..how about 5A for a level ((:

#3 what will your dream wedding be like?
---> My dream wedding means it wouldnt come true? cause its a dream? LOL.. hmm i think the one beside is more impt that those around.

#4 are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
---> Probably yes? but i'll take one step at a time! First finish my As and relax.. i am tired of studying!!

#5 what's your ideal lover like?
---> I dun believe in ideal one. you think like clothes? lol.. someone whom i like and she loves me that good enough le? but must be my kind of girl!* ask me if you wan to know..haha

#6 which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
---> Loving that someone who i am being loved by that someone!

#7 How long do you intend to wait for someone u really love?
--->3yrs? LOL.. i dunno? as long as she promise to be there, i'll wait. but not too long though? LOL

#8 if the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
---> Bestie? LOL Ai yi ge ren bu yi ding yao yong you ta, kan dao ta kan xin jiu gou le. ( but is still gd to be tgt) LOL

#9 is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
---> Yes.. my friends would know why!! Studies and FB.. but FB is alright now!! ((:

#10 is being tagged fun?
---> Hmm.. ok la..lucky its not very long

#11 how do you see yourself in ten years time?
---> A successful young man with lots of money who can provide for my family, my parents and donate to charity. I just want to live a healthy and happy life!

#12 who are currently the most important people to you?
---> family. (:

#13 what kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
---> Someone who likes to sleep on the bus? But she is a nice girl!! LOL..

#14 would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
---> married. but not poor. what kind of qn is this? do you wan to be married and poor? dun wan then dun give la? LOL

#15 what's the first thing you do every morning?
---> LOL.. i wake up afternoon lo?

#16 would you give all in a relationship?
---> THe? you think GSS, got discount.. but i think should not be too dependent over each other. ((:

#17 if you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
---> Put them into simutaneous eqn and solve? the bigger ones gets it..lol.. what if neither likes me? should ask who would they pick? LOL

#18 what type of friends do you like?
---> Genuine, jovial, close to my personality. if not how we clique?

#19 what type of friends do you dislike?
---> Fake, cheat, biasically i dun dislike ppl, but if you let me dislike you..mean you are very dislikable!! LOL..

eight people: CHUNFU!, Kailing!, Naughty!, Joyce!, Eileen!, Kezia!, Ivy!, Weeyong!

Team

Thank you guys for all those encouragement, i really appreciated it. I cant promised that i'll be a cgood captain, one which you all like.. but what i can promise is that i will be a captain who will always be there for each and every single one of you! LOVE from me to the FB team!Lets work tgt and bring home something for ourself, our cca, and our sch. Passion is the answer!

Sucked

I am really really tired for being everything..
I doing hell lot, why cant i just get to play and dun wry so much.
I just wan to play, i wan to improve, i want enjoy,i wan to win!
Yea, failure is the mother of success as one may say
but what if you dun succeed at all.
I am not ashame by you peeps, i am ashame about myself
Captain?
i dun think i am fit to be called that.
I am Sorry,
i let you guys down.
i sucked.*big time*

Title

Give me the affirmation,
Give me the strength to outwit and outplay,
Give me the hope, the wish and the skills
Give me what i have been waiting all these years!
Give me a break!

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry

I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never
Been this way before

All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and now one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger ans stronger
'Til they're before your eyes

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

THis song is nice! from Prince Caspian!! The show was nice.. better then the first right no 2? LOL ((:

朋友

这些年一个人
风也过雨也走
有过泪有过错
还记得坚持甚麽
真爱过才会懂
会寂寞会回首
终有梦终有你在心中
朋友一生一起走
那些日子不再有
一句话一辈子
一生情一杯酒
朋友不曾孤单过
一声朋友你会懂
还有伤还有痛
还要走还有我

Dang chu wei shen mo mei you ta chu nan yi bu?

Recovering

Hey guys, thanks for all those who have showed concern about me and my dad! Really thanks, even though you guys may not be there for me in my darkest night and time, But i am glad to know at least i've got friends who cared, and i am not standing alone, fighting this battle alone. My dad's recovering well, just that he slimmed down a lot which i really heart ache to see him this way.. But i am glad that he is still with me. THank god! ((:

This week is the last wk of the term, which means june holidays are awaitng! FUN! PLAY! WORK! with Prelims paper and tys.. Sobz. ahha.. but i would def play hard and study hard, cause all work and no play make jack a dull boy!.. HAHAH.. Anyway, today physics lesson became a motivation session! Mr Ng, he is really someone i adored, someone i respect, someone is aspire to be! He showed us this clip on youtube about steve jobs- co-founder of Apple. In it, he talks about how he became who he is today, and trust me, the road wasnt that easy, go watch it, Motivational talk by steve jobs one youtube. It sets me thinking. Is academic that impt after all. What is your aim, your goal, your passion? What if you studied so hard, and when you got all As, you found out you contacted a incurable disease? bang down by a car? struck by lightning, killed by someone jumping off the buliding and landed on you? it may sound frivolous,but have you ever thought what if you close your eyes today and never get to see the sun tml?

i conceed that Academic results do matter, but while pursuing for it, do not neglect other factors and excitment of life. It is not just or all about studing. you still have your loved ones, friends, teachers, family, so much more things that is too impt, People do not forget that, at the end of the day, what matters most it how you behave, how you portray yourself, your character that matters. Academic determine your attitude towards certain aspects, Character developement determine your altitute towards things! Stay hungry, Stay foolish. Live life till the fullest, Do it while you still can, treasure all those things, people around you while you still can, or while they are still around, do not wait till they are gone then only you regret why you never treasure it the first place!

Jack(:

DAD

Hmm..THanks for all those who have sent their regards on my tag board. YOu guys may be wandering hy i am so emo these whole week. Some who asked me personally would have known, those who didnt may not know. HAHA... HMM i EMOed due to a lot of factors, but it was due to one which excerabated it.

My dad landed in hospital on monday afternoon. I was dumb founded, speechless, starkly stunned. Why on earth would my dad, a healthy person landed up in hospital. He was very serious when he went in there, his eyes were yellow, he was shivering, his platelets level was freaking low. I as so damn worried.

The next day i went to the hospital, he as in pain, the pain on his face was terrible and how i wished i could even share the slightest bit to help him ameolirate his pain. Doctor said he may have contacted Dengue, which added more to my worries. He could hardly moved. Tears welled up in my eyes and i walked out so he would not see it fall.i learn to cherish, it doesnt hurt to tell someone you miss them, you love them, and you longed to see them. It hurts only and more when you wan to tell but he/she is on longer there anymore. Treasure while you can, dun wait till its gone then only you regret. It too late.

Its really texing for me to attend school in the morning, and hospital till nite. The only thing i could do is to keep him company, make him laugh so he worry less.

I learn a lot from this, really a lot. I came to another wondering session. I always wondered where i got my sense of humour from, where i got my gan xing feeling from. It was all from my dad. His family, my relative is damn funny! I swear. my dad got really better because of them, they went home like 10 and was in the hospital as early as ten in the next morning.

He was discharge from hospital on sunday, the dignose was that he had stones in his gall bladder which have dropped out to clog up the bile duct, which then leads to inflammation, that was the real reason why the platelets level was low, not because of DENGUE..oh thank god. Really...finally i felt better after he is discharge, but he still have to go back to check and operate to remove his gall baldder.

When i am at the hospital, i realise something, everyone was there, relative, and family, Why is it that it have to end up in this episode then everyone will appear together. The only happy time when relative meet up i think is only during chinese new year, Other than that its hard to see everyone gathering together for a good cause, unless someone dies or someone landed up in the hospital. True? i dunno. different people think differently.

Lasly, i want to thank all those who stood by me, who asked about my father almost everyday. Thank you, thank god for i have you guys around me. Or i would have really broke down. Thanks for all the encouragement. I realise something. Don blame why others never tell you.. asked yourself when you never asked.

Melancholic

SOMEONE OFF THE TAP IN MY EYES!

Sometimes

Sometimes i wonder, why am i on earth for,
is it just to add one more person to the world 6.6 billion population,
is it to accomplish something which i am supposed to,
is it to pay back someone that i owe in my pervious life?

Sometimes i wonder, why am i so feeling,
why so easily affected by the people around me.

Sometimes i wonder, why am i so unlucky,
Missing opportunity just by a marginal bit,
Unable to get the things i longed for,

Sometimes i wonder, if you guys reading this post wonder, why am i typing all these,
is jack emo? sad? melancholic? Dejected? Upset? Paranoid?
Where is the sanguine, outgoing, comely, jovial, cheerful jack.

He wonders, all those things he have done for others, be it they know or dun know,
anyone appreciate? anyone aware? anyone?
He is tired, he needs a rest, a long long rest.

It doesnt hurt to say thank you, it doesnt hurt to let others know you miss them,
it doesnt cost to smile, it doesnt hurt to love. It hurts only when you dun show it.
Make sense?

HAHA.. people dun wry.. i am fine. just some random thoughts i have when its late a night when everything is so serene...((: SMILE..Follow your heart!!

Tell me

Tell me i need to be strong,
Tell me i can do it,
Tell me it's possible,
Tell me everything will turn out right,
Tell me I need not worry so much,
Tell me you have plans for me,
Tell me to be happy,
Tell me i am still Jack....
I kinda like my blog song, the lyrics is kind of meaningful!

I fear!

I fear that I will always be a lonely no. like root 3,
A three is all that’s good and right,
why must my 3 be out of sight,
beneath the vicious sq root sign.

I wished instead I were a 9,
for 9 can forth the evil trick with just some quick arithmetic.
I know I'll never see the sun, as 1.7321,

Such as my reality,
the sad of rationality,
my heart, was this I see?
Another sq root of a 3,
just quietly come walking by,
together now we multiply,
a formal number as we prefer, rejoicing as an integer.

We break free from our moral bonds and
waive away those magic wands,
our sq root sign become unglued,
the love from me has been renewed.

Sad

Melancholy...

Sports day

PHEW!!! FINALLY a day to take time of those busy schedule and relax.. sch have been rather texing.. )): today we had sports day.. THe weather was OM!!!! HOT!! Ran 8x 50m haha.. quite fun though! our team came in 2nd.. WOOO!! hahah.. WEE HONG got the sportsboy award and TAURUS is the CHAMPION!!! YEAH... I lazy to blog much nowdays, but people, do keep the tag coming!! ((: update me with your life ya!! take care... ((:

Rest

HMM.. i have recovered from my flu!! haha fast isnt it.. i am not weak after all.. ((: i think its because god wans me to rest! ((: take care ppes out there. dun fall sick.. drink more water =BB ..

sick

ARH!! stupid flu.. go away! or maybe is it a lot of people are missing me therefore i sneeze quite a bit.((: take care peeps. weather is quite bad!

TIRED

I am really exhuasted. How i wish A lvl will pass soon.. and i mean really soon. I need a break!!!!

FAST

Hmm... dun really have time to blog. most of the time is school and trainin. A division hockey is coming up. Monday, against PJC.. Let hope we can do well!! ((: This week is really a disaster for me.. Not as in bad things happen but have been very PEK CHEK from all those scolding. nvm lets hope next week will be beter..

We made it

We surpassed expectations, we fight against all odds, we used to be the underdogs, From the start ppl say that we will not survive long, we will be regulated. BUT... WE WON!!! WE won NTU HURRICANE!!! by a score of 8-4!!! yeaapppp... we stay in DIV 1.so happy....INNEBANDY WON Moose by a huge scoreline of 10-4. thought they played really well... ooooh. i haven do my tutorials, i am so dead... long wk ahead.

tired

OOO>.. i am so so so tired... had cross country yesterday.. i ran ok.. though i wish for better placing.. but oh well.. i should be contented with a 38? .. shall strive to run faster! nth much after that.. just came home.. TVED and sleep.. wake up early in the morning.. went for match singapore schools match against ZRAF.. they where good..we lost 13-0.. i wasted 2 chances of scoring aRHHH>> hate it... next match is on the next sunday. will be our finale match of the season.. our last game playing as team... thinking back about it now.. we have been playing as a team since last nov. 5 mths tgt and its really sad that the team is going to be disband after the league.. nevertheless i enjoyed myself playing with you guys.. ((: lets make the last match ours and remain in div 1.. After match went for hockey friendly, we won 2-1 , dinnered and home!! ar... i am so tired...

Friend

oooo... results sucks!! ar.. disappointed with my results. OH well what to do.. not point crying over spilled milk.. just have to take a cloth to wipe it up i guess.. ((: Xiu Xi Shi Ying Wei Yao Zou Gen Chang Yuan De Lu. "soMeone" call me as tell me this " a friend in need, is a friend in deed" what do you think?

Chances

This made me realise that i actually have feelings for .....boon or bane? too late?

SWEET AINT SWEET

Hm.. today had match with some of the J3, was fun, and J2 guys, i am proud of you all ((:. nth much after that just pizza and earthquake for dinner. Things happen in a flash!

REST

FINALLY, time to take a break and have a kit kat!! ((: anyway.. block test just over..Not talking much abt the paper.. what ever is done cannot be undone. Its amazing how things and people change. one moment they can be real nice, the other they may just back turn their back against you? oh well. nobody is perfect. University is really hard to get in these days, with over ten thousand applying for 6,600 places? A must have! A A A = not equal to confirm in? HAHa what is this world turning into. Went to watch rule no.1. its was an ok movie. just didnt manage to get the last part? i am thinking.. nah dun be spolier.. haha. go watch it!! holidays are just so short.. when can i ever break from those endless tutorials? I have chosen this path, Leave it or Live it?..

Stress

Hi peeps, finally got a bit of time to blog... just back from hockey camp, its was a fun camp, with jovial people around.. although i am still not very adroit in playing hockey, but i still try hard ((: anyway, Singapore Schools Boys beat NUS Saint last sunday, by a close score of 4-3..Well done guys!! AR!!! STRESS ar block test is just 3 days away and i have nreally touch much of my books. OH man... good game! hope i dun fail((: off to sleep then study, shall blog after block test!! ((: take care people. (-__-!) Jack

Victory

YEAH!! Singapore schools boys got their first victory against the SIM BLACkS, we won 8-5, i didint score )): oh well. was kinda sad, didnt really plat my best and as the result didnt get to play much either!! ARH!!! i was have this nervous problem which always affect my performance!!! i really wan to change it, and do away with it, but it was to no avail!!! oh well. Next week is gonna be a busy week, Econs make up, Chem Spa SKill A, Maths test!! oooo.. got to prepare, Wednesday got cca fair too..hope everything goes well!! When the going gets tough, the tough gets going!!

Movie

i am now in school, damn bored!! arhh... i haven watched KUNGFU DUNK!! JUMPER ALSO.. who want pei me go watch?? Tata going to combine school training soon.. take care peeps!!

Birthday

HAPPY Chinese NEW year PEOPle!! hows your Ang Bao collection, GD? Anyway i going to blog about my birthday!!! 15 Jan. ok i noe its a bit too long le, but really no time la, got a lot of things to do, test, tutorials, where got time? Finally i got a breather during this chinese new year break, so sit back and enjoy.

First of all, was a be- earliered, birthday cum christmas present from NAUGTY, OMg, she got me an adidas tracks, wishlist no.1. Thank you NAUGHTY!! ((:


Tracks plus hand-drawn card no.1((; LOVE that card!!


15th JAN- MY 18th Birthday,
its a tuesday, went to sch normally, receive greetings from ppl, dun wry i will thank you all at the end, was rather dissppointed at first, cause close ppl like Kailing, chunfu, reagen, joyce, Jin shi,Eileen all never wished me, thought the didnt care le, then have lesson as usual,time pass rather quickly, then reagen msg me. ASk me out, still never wish me!! haha then i was happy cause finally at least there is people to ask me out, so i agreed, Sch ended not long later, 12D was the very first people to celebrate with me.. (((:

Zhi Lun, Zijie, ZiYang, BZX, Samuel, Amanda, ivy, Geraldine,SHou Jun, Melson, aNdrE and wee hong BOUGHT ME THIS:

Wishlist item no. 2 ( LOVE THEM LOADS) thank you guys! words cant express my feelings, i promise i make class more enjoyable and lively for you guys((:

aNdre and MEl wrote me this, so sweet of them ((: they practically wrote me an essay!! didnt show inside, cause i know ppl will enlarge to read it haha.. and if you two does read this, dun spot my grammar errors!! haha


Birthday card no.3 (2nd one is the one in the prev. pic)

Next is wishlist no.3 ((: tHANKS holy quad, Eugene


Havianas slippers plus card no. 4 in the shoe box!!


Then was birthday card no. 5 from geraldine ((: thanks for putting in so much effort do make me a card!

Bithday card, no 5

Also from 12D was donovan, who give me this, which i found rather cool and sweet!!

SOCKS!! haha, and card no.6 tgt with a small bk, which i like, but still no time to read!!
I have a lot of fun with 12D outside the class, we smear cakes, feed, lick( OMG) haha. till got ppl complain, then reagen called and rushed off to meet them!!
THen it was the start of the whole thing, i swear, i got caught unaware for the first time! ((: LOVE YOU guys man..

MEt reagen and wilson at bk, then they started talking crap, telling me ppl not coming, ESP when they told me clique wasnt coming, i believe him as he sounded serious, i mean ok, ppl are busy!! train all the way to town, cause reagen wan to see some new year clothes! Then walk a lot of places, visited 5 adidas shop, haha, then reagen suddenly say he need to meet his brother! for some weird reason, where then i start to get suspiscious!! Oh ya, while shopping, saw winnie who said " sry, i see you guys later" i was liek huh? then saw bao yun, she was like AYe, you all ..then stop ..haha thus all added to my suspision. haha.

Trained to Marina s. there we began searching for Reagen "brother". FInally we found them as seoul gardens ((:

Saw many people there, was really really surprise! THANKS
CHunfu, pin wen, colin, winnie, Joyce, Eileen, Saman, Jin Shi, where there!! all those that never wish me was there!! ARHHH i am so so happy to see them !! really, then Joyce and Eileen got me a cake from my place((:, cut and winnie said she didnt wan to eat at seoul so we brainstorm of places and we landed up in kenny roger!! ((:

THERE, more ppl came!! Bao yun, Anadee, Kailing, Fishy, Clarinda, Winnie.t


FOOD!


ppl there (front)


PPL there!!( back)

More presents!!!


I REALLY GOT STUNNED BY THIS PRESENT, NEVER IN MY WILDEST DREAMS THAT I WOULD RECEIVE IT..WISHLIST NO. 4 omg.. Love Clarinda and winnie.t !! really, i am so so so X123456789 happy la. YEA. plus hand- written card no.6 from my dearest daughter!! ((:


Card no.7, this is extremely shocking, guess who did it?? REAGEN le.. OMG, you are such a great friend!! ARHH.. Innovian stand proud!! ((:

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AdiZero Lt, damn freaking nice!! Given by clique!! THanks, Love you peeps, never fail to cheer me up!! YEah, wishlist no. 5


Me, Clarinda( haven seen her for like 987654321 years b4 my bd) and LOVE!


PEEPS there, some left aleady though, cause got sch and curfew!.. ((: ok photo was grab for Kailing's blog haha..you wun mind do you!!

At the end of everything, winnie. l suggest that we go for a drink, so we went to Talk cock sing song, Yea that the name " talk cock sing song", haha then wei quan and gary join us! then winnie and baoyun dian * jay * Bu Neng Shuo de mi mi for me to sing, ok my singing is bad. haha ((: then hm after the long day.

Some other present i received after that!!


From Liquan, SMILELY spiderman fan, she say that this will remind em of her when i am hot, OMG la, means i will be reminded of her, cause i am always that hot!! haha BHB ME!((;


From Bro! Zoe! haha, thanks a lot, i still owe you your present, and seriously, i can find the red one!! HELP!!


Shoe bag!! from NFL, Zhan Qing

Finally this post in coming with to an end with me thanking those wo have wished me, DUn wry if you never see you name in this cat, see another cat, still dun have, try harder to find, confirm have one, still dun have means you never wished me la, haha. ((:

THank you FOr you people in my life, my life is like a zig saw puzzle, you guys are here to piece up my life!! whats jack without you guys! LOVE. Thank you once again for your blessing, i think 93 of them, i forget.. and pls name are not in any order cause i just write down((:

1) Clique- Clarinda, Kailing, ChunFU, PinWen, Reagen, Fishy!!

2) HPT- Vanessa, Wilson, Kezia, Anadee, Eileen, Janelle, Shermin, Saman, Anet, Bao yun, Joyce, Jin shi, Winnie.L, Winnie.T, Colin, Steph, Wei Quan, Gary, Brenda, Charmine, Eve

3) Ni**gers- Zhan Qing, Zhi wei, John, Kai Xiang, aNdrE, Wee min, Zhi Heng

4)0712D- Amanda, Ivy, Geraldine, Indo. Terror. , BZX, ZiJie, Eugene, Samuel, Donovan, Zi yang, ZHi Lun, Wee hong, Da'yl, Ivan, Shuj, Sung Hun

5) Ex 4 Grace- Melson, Daph, Xue Qing, Justina tan, Alvin, Zhenyu, Shi YUN. aka. PiNK, Hui Jia, Andrina, Jill , Zoe

6)PHS Ex mate- Leonard, Fiona.C, Melissa.Z, Justina.R, Liquan, Alicia Tee, (Sheralin.AKA BOY!), Keith, Chariene. AKA (Naughty), Wen Ya, Jason, Xiao shi min, Wan ting, Wan Lin, Charistance, Xuting, Cutie girl?, Cheryl, Ciyin, Joseph

7) InnoVians- Charles, Wee yong, Shikin, Vivian, Pu Qin, Ci En, Qiu Yun, Rusee

8) Friends- Jade, Jq, Jin shi MOM, Angeline, Mom, Dad, AH mah, Xiao GU, Elder sis, yonger sis.

FINAlly,i have come to the very end of my post, to end off i use this pic,


CLIQUE, Our relation strengthen time and time, from all those quarrels, PS, fun all that, we still remain a one, ONE FOR ALL, ALL OF one, and really, NOTHING GONNA STOP US NOW!!!